Posted by LadyBug on August 5, 2006, at 17:13:55
In reply to Had my first massage! ;-) » LadyBug, posted by happyflower on August 5, 2006, at 11:39:58
A massage! I'm jeolous! I would give anything right now for one on my back and neck. They are sooooo out of shape from all I've been through and all the laying around I've done.
Good job on your race! You will do better each time and then you won't have that mental block.In my mind I am divorced too. I left without leaving. We try to be civil and he's been good to me during my surgeries. I'm with you! Go on with your life. Who should pay for a relationship? I have been paying for my therapy for lots of years. Finally in Sept. I am changing insurances and my T will be on it! It will pay for a lot of it. I've been thinking about making this my last year with her. So many things are talked about over and over and the same issues come up. I'm better at dealing with the things that I struggle with. I used to call her in a major panic. Now I don't even go there and I'd never call unless I was in danger of myself.
Your DH *not* going to be tested is his own denial that he was unfaithful. He wants to forget it happened and go on with his life. It will haunt him forever unless he deals with it like he should. And if he won't consider therapy, and he probably doesn't work too hard on the relationship, then the guilt will eat him up. I know!! Mine is the same way. Out of site, out of mind. Not so easy. Tell me this, would you stay if you could support yourself? I sure as heck would NOT!!! No way. I do my own thing, take care of my own stuff whether he likes it or not, I don't really care.
I'm going to see my T on Monday and part of me is hurt by something she said to me on Thurs. this week. So I will have to talk to her about it.
That's if I have the energy to do it. Right now, I'm not sleeping worth a dang at night. So I just don't feel good at all. Sometimes I wish I didn't love her so much, but she's been so good for me and to me. I'm glad she's a female, I could never talk to a man like I do her.
Take care and keep up the good attitude and work!!
Hugs
LadyBug
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