Posted by susan47 on August 2, 2006, at 14:37:06
In reply to Re: Susan47, posted by Toph on August 2, 2006, at 12:41:16
That was a nice thing to say, and I appreciate it Toph, thank-you... but it shouldn't matter, should it, that I come from a vicious back-stabbing family, that the things my parents say about people including their children, are horrible, and that they have a blind eye to those things, they're blind to how judgemental they are always have been and how much it hurt their children, how much it hurt me, how much it hurts to know I am badly judged for everything and always have been. That they are this way with few people now, that they are this way with me, and uncomfortable because I know who they really are, I know how malignant their hearts can be.
But then, so can mine. So can mine. My heart can also be dark, and it has been, and it will be again, and I have to rise to the challenge, and change the darkness to rose, to the colour of love. Because my heart wasn't originally this way. I know that. I know my heart is not this way at all, I know this is all learned malignancy and that I can change it.
I just don't know how, who to go to, who will understand, how I can help myself, how can I be helped? How?
poster:susan47
thread:672938
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