Posted by Dinah on July 11, 2006, at 11:49:38
In reply to Mindfulness lesson 1, posted by gardenergirl on July 10, 2006, at 23:59:15
Wise mind is probably the most difficult thing in the world for me to experience. I think it's so integrated with my core troubles that it is almost impossible for me to embrace. Or even to wish to embrace.
It makes it difficult for me to do the rest of the exercises as well, since I usually split into an unemotional observing self which totally undermines the exercise.
Perhaps Babble is the place where I experience wise mind most often. Often I post purely in rational mode, and I don't think I'm at my most helpful then. And occasionally I post purely in emotional mind, and I know I'm not helpful then. But occasionally I work in cooperation, or intellect informed by emotion. And I tend to like myself then.
But in general I have trouble thinking of it as something to aspire to, since there is such a tension between emotion and reason in me, amounting almost to animosity. Despite the fact that I do like myself on those occasions when I do act in cooperation.