Posted by serena11 on May 17, 2006, at 5:10:41
In reply to I feel so sh*tty today, like a loser, posted by happyflower on May 16, 2006, at 10:14:06
> It just seems like I will NEVER get out of my personal hole. No matter how hard I try, everyone says happyflower has no confidence , low self esteem. Well where do you find that?
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> I HATE my parents for what they have done to me. I didn't realize that I am still living the effects of all that horrible abuse.
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> I feel so fragile, like I could break if anyone says anything negative to me. My confidence is weak and I feel so much on the edge of a deep hole. I don't want to fall in there again, it is getting harder to climb out each time.
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> I am tired of fighting for happiness. I feel so worthless. I hate it when everyone says how not good enough I am, but now how to fix it. How do you get self confidence, when eveyone sh*ts on me and doesn't help me gain the confidence.
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> How do you repair an abusive childhood? I really need to talk to my T , but I am so scared to call because he probably won't be able to see me.
> I feel like my wound has now been opened and I don't know how to close it to get through my life. How do you live with a bleading heart?I read through what everyone said and I feel like I have intruded into a quiet circle of people surrounding you, caring and wanting the best for you. I'd like to stand there, too, and say that I have felt that very way you described. There's no shortcut for going through the healing process, even when it doesn't feel like it's healing. The fact that you are able to reach out, write about it, respond, feel, and care are all really good things. Even if it is agony. And I know there is healing. You were not created to be a loser, despite how dreadful you feel and how true that may seem. I hope you can feel the arms of love around you.
poster:serena11
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