Posted by happyflower on May 16, 2006, at 10:14:06
It just seems like I will NEVER get out of my personal hole. No matter how hard I try, everyone says happyflower has no confidence , low self esteem. Well where do you find that?
I HATE my parents for what they have done to me. I didn't realize that I am still living the effects of all that horrible abuse.
I feel so fragile, like I could break if anyone says anything negative to me. My confidence is weak and I feel so much on the edge of a deep hole. I don't want to fall in there again, it is getting harder to climb out each time.
I am tired of fighting for happiness. I feel so worthless. I hate it when everyone says how not good enough I am, but now how to fix it. How do you get self confidence, when eveyone sh*ts on me and doesn't help me gain the confidence.
How do you repair an abusive childhood? I really need to talk to my T , but I am so scared to call because he probably won't be able to see me.
I feel like my wound has now been opened and I don't know how to close it to get through my life. How do you live with a bleading heart?
poster:happyflower
thread:644684
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