Posted by happyflower on May 16, 2006, at 21:03:58
In reply to I feel so sh*tty today, like a loser, posted by happyflower on May 16, 2006, at 10:14:06
I left a message and told him I am not doing well and wanted an appointment if he had one. He left me a message that he didn't have one this week. :-(
Maybe there isn't anything he can do to help me anyways. I am tired of hearing I have low self esteem. I don't think I do about most things, but maybe a few major areas.
So can you develop a good self esteem later in life or is it something you acuire during your childhood?
I just hate that my T and others have said this about me, I guess it showed I DO have low self esteem because I am so upset about it.
I just feel like no matter how hard I am trying, it is never good enough for anyone. I just don't know how to "fix" myself anymore than I already have. It is just really bumming me out today that there is so much wrong with me. I feel like such an outcast because of being labeled with low self esteem.
I am thinking of calling my T and leaving a message to just forget it. It isn't like there is anything he can do about my self esteem, why even bother talking to him about it. I feel so low and I need him now and I don't want to wait until next week to talk about it. I feel like just giving up on therapy anyways, after 1 1 /2 years he still thinks of me being inadaquate of a person. I hate therapy, it makes me feel very sucky at the momement.
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