Posted by Berberis on January 27, 2006, at 13:15:50
In reply to OCD is quite a bit better, posted by Dinah on January 27, 2006, at 10:50:01
But losing my therapist was always something I didn't think I could bear. And though I see him every week, I feel like I've lost him nevertheless. Maybe what I've lost is the feeling that he gives a fr*ckin d*mn about me. It was all an illusion. Smoke and mirrors and tens of thousands of dollars later, nearly the cost of a new home, I see the truth. I really was just patient 934 to him. I am so peripheral to him that he just forgets me if I don't remind him of my existence. Yeah, he's got his own problems. But if he really cared, he'd remember me anyway.
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> Life is nothing but illusions. Things we tell ourselves to get through the day.
Sometimes the only thing that I think keeps me functioning is the belief that my pdoc thinks I'm special and that he's trying extra hard to help me. I know it's delusional, but there it is.
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