Posted by ClearSkies on January 24, 2006, at 22:15:56
In reply to Thanks, posted by James K on January 24, 2006, at 19:13:48
Outpatient wasn't the best place for me ultimately to start to heal and recover. At the last session I attended, where I walked out, I stood up at my chair and made an eloquent accusation to the tune of my opinion that the rest of the group did not have any original thoughts. I wished them all well with their sobrieties but I felt like a parrot being trained to repeat back all those phrases.
Ahem. Not my shining hour. But, as someone said to me, I "spoke my truth". Sheesh, at the expense of behaving like a real butthead in front of those folks. So that was how that treatment ended for me. Then into a non 12-step meeting and individual therapy with someone with whom I felt a much better connection. It has not been sunshine and butterflies since then but I have my sobriety which is the building block I can build my therapy work on.
Keep on, James. You know what you need, you are struggling with a system that feels helplessly broken, if it ever worked at all. You're a smart cookie. You have a compassion you're able to show for others that is a wonderful reflection of the person you are. In the meantime, keep posting, use the support that you can glean from this place, keep connected.
ClearSkies
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