Posted by Dinah on January 18, 2006, at 20:36:17
I'm sleeping poorly despite sleep medication. I'm stressed about work.
Ordinarily I'd call my therapist, either to touch base or to ask for an extra appointment. But I've sort of lost my faith that he could help.
Plus he's really busy with his new job this week. I know because he was going to call me to schedule an appointment Wednesday or Thursday evening. And he hasn't called. Not even to say that he couldn't fit in a session.
And I'm not one bit surprised or upset. I figured it was probably 50-50 that he'd follow through on what he told me he'd do. Maybe he knows that I no longer wait with bated breath for the possibility of an extra appointment. Or maybe he just doesn't care one way or another. Maybe he's just too concerned with himself right now to remember an obligation to a client. After all, he did just scratch my name out for a phone appointment when he had to have an emergency dental appointment, without bothering to tell me. Forgetting to call is minor in comparison.
He was telling me Sunday about something he had forgotten to do. And he said that the truth was that he really just hadn't wanted to do it and that's why he "forgot".
Hmmm....
I guess I might consider it progress that it's really not upsetting me. Irritating me maybe, but not upsetting me like it once would.
I hate progress.
poster:Dinah
thread:600494
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