Posted by muffled on November 17, 2005, at 10:23:18
In reply to Re: (((((B2))))))) » muffled, posted by B2chica on November 17, 2005, at 10:10:57
> muffled i can barely see the keyboard cuz of the tears.
> when i see other little kids about 8 or so i'm afraid of them and for them. i immediately turn into super cop on the look out for predators. i just can't seem to apply those thoughts to me. to other kids yes, but i should have done So much. she was weak and caved. she stupidly loved her brother no matter what he had her do. no matter if it hurt or not, she kept going back for more. i know that's what my mother would tell me. that 'why didn't i stop it', it was my fault for letting it happen more than once. once she could forgive, more than that it was my fault. i got what i deserved she always said. she also said i always love the attention (when she'd hit me) that i wanted it to happen. i apply that to that stupid little girl also.
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> i was so confused and scared. but SHE was just stupid.
> i need to be held. (((((muffled))))
> tears.
> b2c.
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*I don't know how to do cyber holds, but I send you one. I have my arms around you. Both of you and its ok. It will be ok. Nobody was bad. She wanted love. Poor wee thing wanted to be loved. That is not a crime. My wee one is almost 7. She needs alot of attn. She started Gr.1 so she is away for a chunk of day. When she comes home she loves to just be held. I hold her close and we hug and hug an hug for as long as she needs. The whole world stops. Its just her and me and love. Can you imagine that? Thats the way it should be. You had a messed up family, you got caught. Of course you loved your brother, most little girls do. Of course you wanted attn. My kids sure do.Kids are needy little creatures. You didn't get what you needed. You tried. Poor wee thing she tried. Poor B2, you both hurt. Poor B2, its gonna be ok. ((((B2))))(((((little girl)))))
Muffled
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