Posted by 10derHeart on September 24, 2005, at 14:59:03
In reply to Re: I wish » orchid, posted by messadivoce on September 24, 2005, at 14:22:00
> Why can't I just understand that all the time?
You probably do understand that all the time.
But...
Understanding things like that is rational.Emotions, especially those that run this deep, pay little attention to reason.
They do as they will, for as long as they will.
There's only a minimal number of things we can do about it.You know my situation.
And I still hurt over him.
Have too much possible access, almost.
That phase of my life is done, really
Yet I *want* to make up any excuse in the world to email him sometimes.
And I have.
And he's still nice, but careful. Very careful.
And although it must seem like that's heavenly and ideal...
I have to live with the knowledge that if I *never* send him an email again, he would never, ever initiate anything with me.
Ever :-(
A different sort of hurt there, too.But I'll concede, it's gotta be a better kind of hurt than yours. I wish, I wish, I wish...I could fix that for you.
I say...keep posting about it whenever it comes up. You know we don't mind.
((Voce))
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