Posted by sleepygirl on August 3, 2005, at 21:49:25
Hello there,
So I went to therapy and now I'm bummed. I'm a bit more stable lately as far as my mood and anxiety goes, so feeling ambitious, I thought it'd be a good time to talk about why I never talk about so many periods of my life. It just seems like sometimes...so much of it really sucked. So I'm trying to talk about my adolescence, one of the more painful periods of my life. But, it seems I can't really explain it to my therapist, and I'm not really sure he wants to hear it. I sometimes feel like I'm a pain in the *ss dredging up the past and all. But all the time, when I hear people talk about when they were this or that age, I cringe, I feel sad because it brings up the feelings I had at that age, and how badly I felt about myself. I'm so ashamed of myself I can barely stand it. I think maybe it has to do with my horrible lack of self esteem. So maybe I should keep talking about it, but somehow it feels unimportant. I just don't know, and I can't read my therapist's vibes. So do I just forget it? I might need to borrow a little perspective here.
Thanks,
sleepy
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thread:537257
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