Posted by annierose on April 14, 2005, at 15:10:45
Well, I had a rought start to my session today. There were 5 - 6 power lawn movers moving across the lawn of her office building. I felt I was lying next to an airport landing strip. It was so loud, so hard, so distracting and I asked for my T to help me get started. She wasn't much help. It quieted down after 5 or so minutes (seemed like eternity).
When I felt comfortable (and safe)again, I told her about this conference I attended in the morning. The superintendent of schools was introducing the main speaker. Long story short, the "super" was a giant BLAH. So boring, so monotone ... sounded like an idiot. I think he successfully put 200 parents to sleep. My T replied, "you are harsh".
OUCH ... just open that wound with a knife! She could of said, "that was a harsh comment" or "you sound kind of harsh this afternoon" but no, she said that I WAS HARSH. And went on to say, "You know you are harsh and I think it has to do with the dynamics of your family xxx, yyy, zzz."
I'm hurt and mad. Yes, there are moments when I can tell a story and be harsh, but at my core, I consider myself a kind, patient and generous person. It certainly doesn't define me as a person. Yes, I'm to the point, but I'm not mean. So when I came home I called her. That did take some courage on my part. I let her do most of the talking. She didn't seem too comfortable and kept saying, "we can talk about this next week." I hate when they say that. I told her, "I think you were harsh with me. And my feelings are hurt." She vaguely apologized. And encouraged me to talk to her next week.
Uggggh! I hate moments like this. It sends me running.
poster:annierose
thread:484216
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