Posted by Shortelise on March 2, 2005, at 0:55:36
In reply to Re: Needing comfort » Shortelise, posted by Dinah on March 1, 2005, at 20:15:54
I guess I have to learn to accept the suicide thoughts. I don't feel like they get stronger, but they are always there in times of self loathing.
I guess I really need to talk with my shrink about it.
My mother was great about some things, too - I had a very unusual childhood in a good way. But I would love to be able to divorce myself from her emotional caca without having to compartmentalize. I don't know how and am hopefully learning this with my T.
Maybe you will grow back into the good things from your mother. Wouldn't that be nice? I mean, when ugly stuff from my mother tries to slither out of me, I get to yellin' and stompin' on it. Maybe when the good things slither ... er ... express themselves, you might recognize them as things you love about yourself and let them be?
It's very intellectual to think about it, write about it like this. It's not as if these things happen with a label, and if I'm not sure, I look it up in the ShortE manual. Shite. Wouldn't that be nice.
Is it spring that's making some of us feel this way.
Thanks Dinah.
ShortE
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