Posted by Shortelise on March 1, 2005, at 18:22:06
In reply to Re: Needing comfort » Shortelise, posted by pinkeye on March 1, 2005, at 15:23:19
Pink, I don't want to stay in therapy forever. I want to feel better and move on, I want relationships with my husband, friends, cats, family - and not need a therapist.
I do agree that we are spearated in too many ways from too many people. As infants, our mothers work, as children, we move, our friends move, things change around us with a rapidity only known in disrupted societies before us.
I am grateful for my T, and I would love to keep him, tuck him nicely into my life and visit him whenever I like. But that's not to be - I don't want it and he doesn't see it as an option. But you're right, I do feel ashmaed of me need for what he provides.
All of my life, almost fifty years, for as much of it as I can remember, I have always thought about suicide, and have only really attempted it once, but I guess I didn't take enough meds to do the job as I woke up the next day. And that was years and years ago. It's not that I think I will kill myself, I don't think I ever would - I just wish that it would never occur to me. Ever.
Thanks, Pink. I appreciate your thoughfulness so much.
ShortE
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