Posted by alexandra_k on January 24, 2005, at 20:57:25
In reply to Re: t2 and the light (possible trigger) » alexandra_k, posted by Dinah on January 24, 2005, at 20:21:28
Sometimes I can do it. That is what is so hard. Sometimes I can but other times I can't and I don't understand why I can some times but not others. (Dare I say behavioural analyses don't help me with that). I don't know whether there are external triggers or what, but in a way it doesn't matter. I just need it to stop.
But it is the times I can't that ruin everything. It ruins what I do have. That is what I am most afraid of. Because you are supposed to be honest with people you care about. But how can you tell someone that you feel empty when you can see that they would do anything for you?
That despite your really believing that they do care you still feel empty anyway?
Maybe I really do need to take some medication to mute this or something.
I know it won't make it all go away. But maybe it will make it easier to cope with.
Thanks Dinah.
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