Posted by DaisyM on September 19, 2004, at 1:04:45
In reply to Re: reality vs fantasay (long) » lucy stone, posted by Dinah on September 18, 2004, at 23:04:19
This thread made me think about the article on grieving that was posted here a few months ago. I read the whole article carefully because I know this is what I need to do, grieve for the childhood I didn't have, and for the one I did. And then give up the fantasy of ever having unconditional love that most kids get from their parents.
My therapy has helped me to see that part of the deep sadness and pain I feel is grief. I just don't know how to get past this part. I can't seem to force myself through and I can't find the right answers in a book. It is astonishing how painful those waves can be when you get triggered.
I think my therapist is putting his emphasis on building trust because he doesn't think I will even begin to look for this level of support IRL until I really learn that it exists and is possible from mere mortals. Once I've accepted that he can hold some of this pain and not get crushed beneath it, then maybe I'll look to sharing more with some significant people in my life.
The other thing I've grown to realize is that I have different realities, based on which part of me is in charge. My reality as a mother and wife differs from my reality as a boss, which is significantly different than my reality as a therapy client. Depends on the emotional lense I'm viewing the landscape with.
It is interesting how we are all trying to get to the same place in different ways. I'm glad we have each other.
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