Posted by Pfinstegg on September 15, 2004, at 20:28:54
In reply to Just Need to Babble - sorry, long, posted by daisym on September 15, 2004, at 19:08:57
Hi Daisy. I've been having a rough time, too. I understand what you are saying- *you* would like the younger parts to keep quiet, and not cause you any more pain than you have already. I feel the same- I just don't feel that I can bear any more, either, but I can't turn it off- it just keeps pouring out. My T welcomes everything, and is very supportive and empathic, but the younger parts of me, which were severely abused and neglected, don't even believe he really means it. *They* feel all alone, We keep working to find better ways to help them feel connected to him-we have some helpful things we can do, but not as many as we need, as yet. I go hope with swollen, red eyes, and even eat a whole pint of chocolate chip ice cream in my desperation! That's a new thing for me to do, and not a very good idea, on a regular basis. One thing I can say through all this- I, the grown-up, have comlete trust that my T is there for me through thick and thin- i never doubt it even for a second, but it is shocking to find that younger, until recently unconscious parts of me feel just the opposite- that he'll get angry and fed-up, kick me out. etc.
I feel I do really understand- my experiences are so similiar to yours. I try to remind myself that I must, at least, have gotten strong enough to bear all of this, however poorly I seem to be doing it.
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