Posted by Angel Girl on May 14, 2004, at 14:31:05
In reply to Re: Pdocs? (long ... as usual), posted by starlight on May 13, 2004, at 10:54:09
> That's where you start, and then you just keep rolling. Write yourself a new story. So after you write:
> "WOW!!! I just can't imagine writing 3 pages. I think I'd have a hard time writing 3 lines. What would I have to write. I'm feeling severely depressed and my meds aren't working and I've lost my friends once again. I really don't have any other than that to write. I guess I just miss the point, even though I know several people who journalize every day. I just wouldn't know where to begin. Every day would also be the same. What a boring read that would be. :("
> Change it up! Notice things around you and write about that - I'll give you an example -
> I woke up this morning and the house was dark. The cat was on the bed warming my feet. Even though my meds aren't working and I feel depressed, there's this deep part of me that never changes, never ages - it knows a constant attachment to the universe and is there to support me. I feel like I have no one - but I do, I have a whole list of people who write and listen to me vent and are seriously concerned for my health and welfare. This lifts my spirit. I know that when I feel this way, I'm magnifying the problem, and I'm failing to realize the truth around me - that life is everywhere, even the ground beneath my feet does it's job by supporting me as I move through this world. I look in the mirror and deep in my eyes I see this constant - this constant love that I hold for myself, despite the hard time I have locating it.
> So you see - you just keep going. Rewrite the story, in your story, see the person you want to see and give her a voice. DON'T JUDGE IT EVER! Don't even go back and read it - just do it. Judging it blocks it and what we want to do is to break through the blocks that hold you back and add to your negative thoughts. Read what you said, see the blockage there, and get rid of it. It's in your power to do so.
I guess I never looked at it from that angle. I'll give it a try. I think it would be very therapeudic (sp?) to write it out, to release your feelings for that day. Thanks for giving me an example, it really helped me. I appreciate that.