Posted by Penny on February 16, 2004, at 15:18:06
In reply to Re: I guess he's not perfect after all., posted by Karen_kay on February 16, 2004, at 15:03:46
(((KK)))
You are so good...
In my email to him, I told him that I left feeling as though he might have been frustrated with me, "though it could just be me."
I know he's busy, I know he sometimes takes a little while to respond to email, and occasionally, I think it slips his mind.
And, at the same time, I really really want to email him today and say, "I need to cancel my next appointment." and leave it at that. Not mention rescheduling. And when he responds, which he will, just not reply to him. Just be done with it.
Stupid, eh?
I don't want to play games. And I guess I'll fess up to my T tomorrow night about all of this, at which point she will, in her sensible caring way, tell me that she's confident that, as you said, he was probably just tired and/or distracted, but that she's sure it's not personal, and of course I can't just stop going to him.
But part of me wants to. I just want to quit. I was feeling so good, until the past couple of weeks. And then when I saw him on Friday night, I had just come from visiting my cousin in the hospital, and I told him about that, and we talked about other stuff, and I told him what was going on in therapy, and so on, and we made the next appointment, and, I don't know...I just felt like he ... didn't get it? and he usually does. But this time I felt like he got the impression that I was fine and dandy, and I wasn't.
I don't know. I feel tearful. And stupid. :-(
I need my therapist. :'-(
Thanks, KK. I really do appreciate your taking the time to read and respond.
P
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