Posted by Karen_kay on January 18, 2004, at 12:11:35
In reply to Re: being Special, posted by dragonfly25 on January 18, 2004, at 10:45:53
Actually, we are on a first name basis. As he is with every other client he sees. (So, does that make a difference, if he's consistent?) The thing is, he knows that I have problems with guilt and sex combined. Maybe he shouldn't have told me aobut his personal fantasies, but he did include the fact that he also thinks about other people as well (my typing seems to be slowing down, as this isn't really a good defense. Wondering now what the point was....) Oh, got it. The point was to reassure me that IT IS OK for me to think aobut whoever I want because other people do too! (Ah ha! I figured it out!) Now, this is someone I highly respect, and if HE says he thinks about whoever he wants, then it must be OK for me to do as well, you see? If you don't I can draw a picture.. :)
Now, another good thing that has come from all of this is the fact that my trust in him has SKYROCKETED!!! I'm telling you I trust him so much that I'm going to tell him that I googled him, found a pic of his wife (tried to email that pic to my sister to reassure me that I am in fact better looking than her and crashed the site..OH THE HORROR!!! the shame...Maybe I'll leave that one out, should I?? Yeah, I think I will..Oh, ladies, please don't think bad of me. I wsa going through a BAD crush on him at the time...), I found out where he lives, ect. I'm fessing up because I TRUST HIM!!! Just because he answered a question honestly. And this also means that I will be able to talk more freely about my past and different issues because he can "be trusted with my secrets"..... And that's great!
I always wonder how or why he does things, but it seems they ALWAYS work out. Maybe he knows what he's doing, maybe not. Maybe I know what he's doing and he has no clue. Maybe it's the idea that you ladies (and gentlemen) know what he's doing. Maybe no one knows what's going on. But it seems to work for me and that's all that matters :)And the fact that I may or may not feel special doesn't phase me. I know I'm special to the people who matter. I'm not at all suggesting it isn't nice to hear. Oh, it's great! I used to press the issue and he'd become so frustrated! He used to say, "The children I see are my favorite clients." But, I can't be jealous of children can I? Heck yeah I can! But, I know that I'm entertaining on occassion and also making quite a bit of progress. But, I'm not making progress for him. I'm doing it for me. I just know in my herat if i were seeing a different therapist I wouldn't be making the progress I am. I used to see a different therapist for about the same amount of time as I've been seeing him and I made absolutely no progress. It's jsut that he didnt' challenge me nearly enough. He didn't pick up on my game-playing. As much as I hate it when my current therapist accuses me of "playing-games" I know I am. Does that mean I stop? NEVER!
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