Posted by joslynn on November 25, 2003, at 8:34:34
In reply to Re: I'm creepy.. Help!! » Karen_kay, posted by lookdownfish on November 25, 2003, at 3:13:05
Karen, this probably doesn't help, but maybe the following driveby story may make you realize you are not alone.
This doesn't involve therapy, it involved a man in my town who I was sort of involved with and probably addicted to (I think I've had love addiction tendencies in the past). Anyway, this guy lived only a few blocks away from me. After things ended with us, I felt compelled to know what he was doing, even though I was pretty much the one who ended things by setting a boundary he didn't like. Still the compulsion was there, and knowing where he lived made it so tempting.
However, I refused to drive by his house. That was a little rule I made for myself. Well, to get around this rule, I would drive down a street that was parallel to his instead. At one point on the street, there was a connecting road to his street (picture an H shape), and if I looked down it I could see a glimpse of his house.
Soooo...while driving down the parallel street rationalizing to myself that it was NOT a drive by, I would quickly whip my head in the direction of his street when I came to the connecting street, nearly driving off the road and killing myself and all others in my path in the process. (I had to really crane my neck to get a glimpse of his house and to see if his car was there.)
All the time, I convinced myself that I was not doing a drive by, because I wasn't technically on his road. Thankfully, he moved (not because of me!).
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