Posted by Jai on November 17, 2003, at 22:01:25
when my father died my brain just could not contain the truth. He was no longer on the earth and would not be back. I honestly thought if I sincerely said to him, "Okay Dad now I know what it's like to have you dead, just come back now and let's talk about it." I guess I thought he just might take me up on that offer. My brain just kept going through circular thinking. Where is my dad, he must be here somewhere...I would look for him but he was truly gone. The finality was so hard to grasp. He had always been there. Surely he would reappear. I miss him and the memory and pain is dulled with the passing of time. Death is such a mystery to me. My brain can't fathom it at all.
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