Posted by allisonross on November 8, 2005, at 5:18:21
In reply to What do you do when Christ breaks your heart?, posted by mr. matt87 on November 7, 2005, at 22:01:43
> Dear Matt: I am so sorry. Can you tell me what happened?
I just got hit with reality, i had so much faith, it hurt so much, when i found out that all of it was wasted.
Why do you think this?
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> I cant belive this, it really hurts, but you have to accept it. I trust God because of my struggles and to find that he just let faith blew away I am crying right now.I am so sorry.
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> I belived it would happen, I knew i though I heard his voice, and I found it only to be a mirrage. I thought I had stablity with him, I think its begining to rain.
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> I tell God, the holy spirit my fears, and please let it be ok. Only to find that absolutly been dropped. I fallen hard, it hurts that it was only a mirrage that was in my mind. You know... i cant
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> It hurts a little to know that faith has been shattered. But accept what has happened
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> I need to break off.I have a website: www.churchabusepoetrytherapy.com, perhaps there is something in there which will help.
I was voted out of a 31-year church membership (my name put up on a big screen, followed by the words: CONDUCT UNBECOMING A CHILD OF GOD...beause I got a divorce after 31 years of abuse.
If you read my thread: I Bet You Never Heard a Story Like this, you can read what happened.
To be betrayed by a whole church is a wound which can never fully heal; it has been 3 years; so now I am alone for the 1st time in 31 years; trying to heal from divorce, abuse and the abuse of a church. I never lost my faith, because I knew it was blind, misguided people doing this to me.
My love and thoughts and prayers are with you, Matt. Love, Ally
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