Posted by okydoky on May 25, 2008, at 12:30:11
In reply to Re: Grief of Self, posted by Phillipa on May 25, 2008, at 11:52:48
Phillipa,
I do not know you but for a few interactions. Let me say though that having the emotional and physical energy and MOTIVATION to do the task you set out to do because you wanted to is something great. At least in my life it would be astounding. You should feel great about it. I guess you found out you did not need your husband and could do this for yourself.
I do not long for my younger years, for times past. I would not like to repeat them at all. I grieve for the past that I never had. For the continued promise as each year sped by that I would want to live, be able to extract some modicum of pleasure from the experience of life. In part I suppose I grieve more now because there is so little time left even if I were able to live but also because I am tired. I am worn down. I dont have the energy to try anymore.
I do know I am very glad about your trip. When I have been able to do things for myself I always feel better about myslef.
Good for you,
oky
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