Posted by Lou Pilder on June 11, 2015, at 8:15:00
In reply to Re: I'm just so tired of the same fight... » b2chica, posted by SLS on June 11, 2015, at 0:50:07
> > week after week, month after month, year after year.
> > i haven really had relief of my symptoms since last October. i've been begging my pdoc Everytime i see her (which has been every week lately).
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> > my depression is definitely gone down hill. i don't want to leave the house. i can't make eye contact. life feels utterly hopeless.
> > i have this "I don't want to fight it anymore" feeling.
> >
> > right now i'm at the point where i still have my logic and Know i have an illness that makes me think and feel in a certain way... but soon, that logic will be gone and i fear i will attempt...
> >
> > i started Fetzima today... but i'm tired of hoping... tired of trying... all the time.
> >
> > just want to stay asleep...
> >
> > well, one more week before i report to pdoc....
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> Have you tried Savella?
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> Fetzima is probably better.
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> For me, the energy to fight ebbs and flows. However, I know that I am less resilient than I used to be. I've tried just about every drug option. I am more apt to consider euthanizing myself when my depression worsens, despite the understanding that my thoughts are warped and darkened by a biological brain disorder. However, there is still truth in much of what I ruminate over. It is hard to avoid acknowledging the number of treatment failures and the dwindling remaining alternatives. It is hard to avoid acknowledging the destruction, loss, pain, frustration, and emptiness of my life. Still, a partial improvement helps prevent me from succumbing.
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> I hope you get relief from Fetzima. War is hell, and so is severe depression. You have found the energy and will to fight before, and you will find it again.
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> - Scott
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> Friends,
Be not deceived. For drugger will post to drugger and there will be suicides in diverse places. But be of good cheer, for the end is not yet if I could reveal to you The Way out so that all your troubles will seem so far away.
And you mothers. Read of the attempts to get some satisfaction from druggin'. And they can't get no. Do you want your son, your daughter in the hands of a psychiatrist to drug them so that suicide is always on their mind?
Let us reason together. There is a way that seem natural to man, but the end could lead to destruction. But there is another way that leads to life and I am prevented from posting that here due to prohibitions to me by Mr. Hsiung. Don't you see that when he told you you'd be supported, that the support could lead to death. And if one knows better, they could see everything that they do. And they do.
Tonight's the night. Watch for a new thread started by me. I will attempt to reveal to you your way out from the bondage of your drugs. I will open my Little Shoppe again and all could come in. You could be a scoffer, backbiter, a cheater , a looser, or someone hanging 'round those here that carry 'round their drug vile. But keep a keen eye, for you don't have to be a psychopath to know that drugs can kill you.
Lou
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