Posted by SLS on June 11, 2015, at 0:50:07
In reply to I'm just so tired of the same fight..., posted by b2chica on June 10, 2015, at 23:21:03
> week after week, month after month, year after year.
> i haven really had relief of my symptoms since last October. i've been begging my pdoc Everytime i see her (which has been every week lately).
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> my depression is definitely gone down hill. i don't want to leave the house. i can't make eye contact. life feels utterly hopeless.
> i have this "I don't want to fight it anymore" feeling.
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> right now i'm at the point where i still have my logic and Know i have an illness that makes me think and feel in a certain way... but soon, that logic will be gone and i fear i will attempt...
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> i started Fetzima today... but i'm tired of hoping... tired of trying... all the time.
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> just want to stay asleep...
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> well, one more week before i report to pdoc....
Have you tried Savella?Fetzima is probably better.
For me, the energy to fight ebbs and flows. However, I know that I am less resilient than I used to be. I've tried just about every drug option. I am more apt to consider euthanizing myself when my depression worsens, despite the understanding that my thoughts are warped and darkened by a biological brain disorder. However, there is still truth in much of what I ruminate over. It is hard to avoid acknowledging the number of treatment failures and the dwindling remaining alternatives. It is hard to avoid acknowledging the destruction, loss, pain, frustration, and emptiness of my life. Still, a partial improvement helps prevent me from succumbing.
I hope you get relief from Fetzima. War is hell, and so is severe depression. You have found the energy and will to fight before, and you will find it again.
- Scott
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.- George Bernard Shaw
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