Posted by b2chica on July 26, 2013, at 10:42:27
In reply to Re: DRI's???? » b2chica, posted by SLS on July 25, 2013, at 18:32:24
-been on remeron. cried for the week i was on it. I was actually on it for sleep, but didn't even help with that...
-been on seroquel, worked great for sleep, best rest i had in years but in less than a month i got severe cognitive blunting.yes, very much putting out the fire with gasoline. but last night i realized it wasn't the haldol that was helping me sleep. it was my drinks before. last night i was up till 2:30 then finally took a hydrocodone and got to sleep around 3. Then woke up about 6:30 this morning. i'm tired but can't sleep, even when i try.
i have been manic in a sense that it was dysphoric mania, not good, agitated, angry (mostly at self), depressive with energy.
i have been dx with Bipolar II, psychotic depression and bipolar with mixed episodes.
your guess is as good as theirs. My pdoc now really hasn't given me an exact dx.yes i've had psychotic episodes but its been a whileum let me think a minute. Probably last fall sometime. Though now that you mention it i've been having my visual "oddities" for about the last three months, getting a little more frequent, but i just thought it was because of the uncontrolled anxiety, or haldol?
*******************i think due partly to my lack of sleep i'm in a bad place today. From the time i woke up. Im thinking bad thoughts. i got into my 'stash' of old meds and i gathered about 5 bottles ready to throw them out, but my pharmacy won't take them and told me the capsules i'm supposed to empty out first, THEN flush it. So i did that with the prozasin (sp?) but as i was emptying each capsule i kept looking ahead at all the dexedrine and vyvanse that i needed to do that to and i was thinking how much easier it would be to take if i just mixed it all with milk and took all the powder. Literally opening every capsule was torture. so i stopped. dumped what i had, but couldn't throw away any of the dex, or vyvanse. put it all back in my lock box.
i called my pdoc's nurse pract. and left msg for her to call me if she can.
I'm at library now. was able to take myself here. (where there is internet) to talk to someone. till i hear from her.
i really wish i could see my proc. but its two weeks and he's out of town so there's no chance of upping that date.
if you want i can list all the meds I've been on. (that's the one thing i've done since the beginning. i've kept record of what i took, when started and tried to put when stopped as well.
b2
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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