Posted by floatingbridge on October 15, 2010, at 14:44:08
My depression seems to be deepening. So, questions.
1. Can reducing tramadol from 9 37.5 tablets to 5 affect my mood? Then, since I hadn't a pain episode, the last few days I took none. (Could this be a no brainier?)
2. Increasing difficulty getting up and
staying up. Nothing seems to matter. I want to stay fetal. Why is it so difficult to just get up and go through the motions? My default answer is laziness. It becomes more difficult. Is this a symptom of depression? Why is it?3. Concern for my son could always motivate me. That seems to be slipping.
Not enough to motivate me lately. We used to have fun. I enjoyed him. What is happening? I am so flat, so tired, and
scared.I did get out of bed, cook breakfast.
Talked to husband. Decided to take some emergency xanax and half my
allowed tramadol.You'd think after 13 years I'd have a handle on this. So yes, tramadol reduction is having an effect, part of
depression is the desire to go fetal (but
why! Why!). And yes, I have terrible guilt over my decision to be a mother. This will come and go and when the depression affects my son, I will feel horror and despair.
MDD currently controlled. C-ptsd and comorbid health concerns. Chronic fatigue.
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