Posted by OneWing on April 20, 2010, at 0:17:20
Sorry about the length of this.
A few years ago, I started seeing a therapist for depression, anxiety and social issues. I was soon put on Cymbalta, and the dosage was increased with no effect on my depression. I was then switched to Zoloft, which also had no effect, no matter the dosage. I was then moved to Wellbutrin, and now I'm on Lexapro. Nothing is working or me. I know a pill won't magically help me, but there has been no effect by these pills. I've seen 4 therapists (went to college, switched colleges etc, wasn't purposefully changing therapists), and also have really not stopped hating myself any less than I did. I think I can say that I hate myself more now. I'm not suicidal though, just self-deprecating. I've stopped therapy because of this, and my most recent therapist (when I told her I was stopping) basically explained to me how therapists can't really do anything but listen and provide information, and the change has to come from within. She suggested I start doing something creative. I can't believe I've spent so much money just for this answer.
So my question is, what now? What can I do? What can I take? I hate being stuck like this, I can't even look in the mirror an not despise everything I see in it.Little background:
I have sleep issues (sleeping pills don't work more than 3 days, I easily adjust to them, out of brands) and chronic joint, neck and back pain. I've been on a pharmacy of pills for all this, physical therapy, behavioral therapy, you name it I've tried it. Nothing seems to help me. I think it's possibly somatic, which means I'm screwed anyways in looking for a cure.
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