Posted by garnet71 on June 26, 2009, at 2:18:31
I have an appt. in a couple of weeks with the psychiatrist/analyst I've been seeing, but am concerned. I'm not thinking oh i have psychosis, but am a bit concerned something will come out from stressors/pressures. Are there things prescribed that can prevent a breakdown? and if I did have an underlying psychotic disorder or something else, wouldn't it be better to just "leave it in there" considering I've been pretty functional all these years/almost 40 and that it may never emerge if I prevent it now?
It's just that I failed a test yesterday, i mean i got like a 20% because I couldn't even set up the problems to even be able to do all the subsequent calculations. I was having a panic attack while I was taking it, and felt anxious about getting out a bottle of meds in class to take xanax; it wouldn't have worked quick enough anyway. not that I would have done good anyway, I studied, stayed up all night, but realized I studied wrong when i saw the exam. I got a C on my last exam in another class. I'm not sure if I can pass the MS program if I fail that class, i don't know how that works in grad school. I just know that I have to have a B average to graduate and that class is a requirement.
Lots of other stressors, like I have $200 in parking tickets piled up in my car, and they keep coming because I have not had enough money to buy a parking pass and can't do the 4 hour a day commute on buses, a big pile of unopened bills here, medical problems I haven't yet addressed since getting health insurance back, ect. Well there's a lot of stuff....
But I don't feel I have depression or mood problems besides anxiety, but are mood stabilizers generally used for this sort of thing? I feel if i have a breakdown, I'll never recover/get back to normal and my whole life will fall apart.
I don't think i can get an appt. w/ a new pdoc sooner, I can probably get in with a new psychoanalyst soon, but am not sure if i want to do that therapy right now and do not think they would scribe meds during initial visit. I guess I could go to my school clinic, but they don't have psychiatrists for walk in; i really want someone experienced. I think I'll try that. I jsut can't go on an SSRI cause they take away my motivation and make me depressed and fatigued.
I guess xanax would prevent a breakdown? But i don't think it's good to keep taking it, this new doctor gave me too much and I've started to take it regularly w/the high anxiety levels. I need to switch to something else.
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