Posted by liliths on February 11, 2007, at 6:34:06
In reply to Re: just started tianeptine » liliths, posted by Declan on February 10, 2007, at 21:30:30
hi Declan
I'm so glad to hear you're enjoyed a better day - I hope you gather strings of them :)
If I had to try to condense my despair, I would have to say it's because I simply don't know how to live and can't bear it anymore. Sometimes it feels as if I'm taking small steps out of this pit only to feel myself slide right back down into the muck... I'm so tired of fighting. Starting to think it's time to just give up.
But there are 'issues' as well. I've posted about my recent attempt to get a life (selling my house and going back to school full-time for a year... and it took everything I had left to pull THAT off!), only to be put down because of my treatement for depression. The state denied me the license I worked really hard for, unless I was willing to be treated like a drug addict. What 'might' have actually been a new beginning for me was over before it ever began. I don't even care anymore. I fought them hard the first time and even though I'm still appealing the ruling, I don't have anything left to do battle again. It just doesn't matter and feels like I need to just let go of that and move on.. but to what? I'm unable to leave the house most days... running out of money and fast. Need serious dental work I can't afford....and on and on and on and on... ad nauseum
Thank you for asking but I think I'm a lost cause
I hope you have a glorious day!!
namaste,
lilith> I am having a better day. Thanx for thinking of me.
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