Posted by liliths on May 27, 2008, at 7:57:26
In reply to Re: Tianeptine - what positives have you noticed? » liliths, posted by Treehugger on May 26, 2008, at 14:45:49
Treehugger... how nice to hear from you. Hard to believe it's been over a year since I posted in this thread... though nothing's changed in my outlook or ability to live.
I just deleted a lot of nonsense that I wrote - my ADD meds allow me to be most communicative early in the day, though I should use the energy to getting things accomplished which will support my staying alive and perhaps pull me out of my vicious depression.
If possible, it's worse... as I've lost all interest in everything - even the things I've thrived on all my life. I can't seem to will myself to do anything these days and feel more and more like I'm about to fall off the edge of the precipice I've been on for so long. Oh I have my 'moments' but they are short lived as there's no structure in my life to support them
and before anyone asks, no... my pdoc won't change my meds - the best I can do is play with what I have and I'm so tired of hoping the 'right' medication will help anyway.
I've pretty much given up... it's why I've been so silent for so long. For those who remember my ordeal with the state over my licensing, I recently requested an early release - hard to believe I've lived under this constant cloud for a year now... but my request was met with silence. I know they know I have no business being monitored regardless of how I'm feeling... I am certainly no threat to anyone else - which is their point for 'watching' me.
But I can't even admit to being depressed as their contract stipulates that they can initiate random drug tests and other invasive procedures - at MY own expense - should my pdoc report that I am not doing well.
Gee, that makes a lot of sense! One of the main points behind this unremitting depression is their interference in my life to begin with. I simply can't bear knowing I'm constantly being watched and monitored.
ok... enough whining and babbling - after all I needn't live up to the psycho-babble name LOL
love to you all - I do hope everyone is in a good place these days
namaste,
liliths
> Liliths - I have tried Tianeptine a couple of times and it doesn't work for me. I have also tried Amineptine, and still have some of the real stuff (keep in fridge) it is interesting, but didn't really work consistently for anxiety or depression. Nardil worked for me years ago before the reformulation - I am concerned about trying it again for all the bad effects being talked about by original Nardil users. You haven't posted in awhile - how are you doing & have you found something that works for you?
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