Posted by Reggie BoStar on November 22, 2006, at 4:07:20
I've been around long enough now to know that the statements "It's treatable" and "keep trying, you'll find the right medication and therapy" are just bad guesses on the part of people who don't even know how those therapies work.
I'm 56, been this way since 10, alive for nothing, did not one thing with my life except exist in a constant state of depression, often really bad, only relief is "hypomania" which is actually depression for most other people. Nothing has worked; no meds, ECT, therapy, nothing. Worst of all, at times I seem to get a glimmer of hope from an AD medication or therapy, only to be shut down when it stops working. The SSRI's are a good example. Everyone knows they don't last, including the pros. They don't warn you ahead of time to be prepared when it stops working or doesn't work at all.
Why do we bother with all this? Why do we spend so much money and time with pdocs who don't even know how some of these things work? All it is is a continuous struggle with some failed attempt at "harm reduction", and they know it.
"harm reduction". That's a good one. At least they're admitting that nothing works, that the best they can do is hold your hand through a crisis, until, guess what, you have another crisis.
So what's the point? A life of one crisis after another until I die. What am I being kept alive for? I do nothing but get treatment and exist. After 40 some-odd years of this, I've finally realized that this is it for the rest of my life. Apparently my blessing is cowardice, so I'm too afraid to stop wasting time. So why?
poster:Reggie BoStar
thread:706067
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