Posted by saturn on November 23, 2006, at 17:30:37
In reply to Re: It's Treatable. No, it's not. » Reggie BoStar, posted by SLS on November 22, 2006, at 7:39:34
> > at times I seem to get a glimmer of hope from an AD medication or therapy, only to be shut down when it stops working.
> This is a demonstration that the hardware is capable of functioning.
So insightful. This concept, though so simple, often keeps me inspired.
If I can feel, behave or concentrate or even just laugh as I'd like for even a few brief moments out of months or years it confirms to me that my brain is capable of reaching such states.
For example, in Wal-Mart a few weeks ago a sort of heavy peace just came over me for a few minutes--like an anti-anxiety attack--for no apparent reason and then poof--like smoke it was gone.
And a few years ago, I just came off the cuff out of nowhere with confidence and spontaneous humor with a beautiful woman at the gas station while we were both getting gas. I'm normally very shy and a nervous wreck in such situations. Yet it is possible.
All this makes me wonder if meditation might not be useful to some extent. However the brain gets there--drugs or otherwise, so long as it is possible there is hope.
Best to you, Reggie BoStar. I do not pretend to tell you that everything will get better or give you a superficial pep-talk, but realizing Scott's perspective may give some balance. And as Blueberry said, you've figured out so much that *doesn't* work. Keep fighting, even if it's only miniscule progress each day. P-babble is an amazing resource. I feel like sh** a lot of the time but it is in these states that it is most important to think of a moment--even if it lasted only a few seconds like an orgasm--when life felt worth living. Just my two cents. Peace...Saturn.