Posted by clint878 on November 28, 2006, at 19:55:16
In reply to Re: It's Treatable. No, it's not. » clint878, posted by linkadge on November 27, 2006, at 18:37:06
I took it for five days, only 200mg/day, beginning on August 5. I discontinued it because I was suffering from memory loss and confusion. On the sixth day, I became completely unable to do anything - with severe panic attacks and depression with so much energy I thought my head would explode. A few days later, I became unable to sleep, for four days straight at a time. One time I was so sleep-deprived I fainted. I would pace for hours and hours. I had no emotions; in fact, I couldn't think clearly enough to even understand the concept of emotions. I nearly committed suicide several times because I couldn't think.
It took eight weeks before a doctor was able to provide me any help with the condition. He said that I have a "minor variant of bipolar disorder" and prescribed Lamictal. Yet, even though all the symptoms above have subsided except for the memory problems, nobody can tell me why I still can't keep any thought in my head for more for three seconds. I have difficulty coming up with the right words, which has caused several incidents where I have appeared extremely stupid. And driving is another story, because I can't process everything that's going on around me in real-time, with the world being out-of-focus. I remember very little of what happened the past three months.
As a result of this, I lost a promotion, and will probably be out of a job within a few months unless someone can help me. Probably, I'll have to throw away my master's degree in computer science and engineering and do some low-paying labor or secretarial work.
This post took me almost an hour to write because I lose my train of thought so frequently and can't come up with the right words.
It's amazing how one day I could be a little depressed, just looking for a minor boost with a low dose of Sam-E, and a week later, become so completely unable to think that it's almost not worth living. I'm not suicidal, so don't call the police, but I still see little good I can do by continuing to exist without a mind.
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