Posted by katia on November 11, 2004, at 16:40:20
In reply to Maybe some help? » katia, posted by Barbaracat on November 11, 2004, at 16:09:23
Hi Barb (and Katy, others)
Glad to hear you're doing better today. Did you hear that Eliz. Edwards was dxed with breast cancer the same day they conceded? Bizarre timing...
I'm in a different place today; I'm still slow, decreased appetite, not wanting to see people, teary, but I'm in an accepting place about this shift in mood. Like I just accept I need to go inward and quiet for awhile instead of fight it. I also have a bad migraine starting yesterday (starting at the lower back of the head shooting through my eyeballs). I've never gotten these until this year,, i wonder if it's med related/Trileptal or Paxil? I also have mild/mod whiplash from being rearended a couple weeks ago. I think this adds to the depression.
I may try the SJW, but I get my meds free from samples and don't know how much I can afford. I also know that it works on serotonin, so couldn't that be dangerous for BPs too? it's like an herbal AD? I may try it though; I'd rather go natural if it's effective. I bought a sun/light box yesterday and am waiting for its arrival. I think this will help me since reading up on it.
I thought about you last night. I went to Cathy's workshop "Life Cycles" about what happens when animals die. Someone had a cat who hung on even after the injection and she always wondered if she chose too early for him to go. But Cathy explained that it was time, but still some animals have a strong will to live even when it's time; I thought of Merlin. Rock had requested through CAthy to me that I bring the candle I light on his alter (it's in a nice sculpture/bowl with rose petals and a candle). He wanted me to bring it and light the candle to create light and healing for beings. He was excited about the workshop and was right there the whole time.
Interesting and heartwarming/wrenching stuff and confusing to me as well.
BTW, I received an email from someone directly from this board (sent via PB). I think there is a way that we can send a private message and then exchange email addresses. I'll look into it.