Posted by fluffy on November 10, 2004, at 15:55:08
In reply to Re: Needing support/shamanic healing? » Barbaracat, posted by katia on November 10, 2004, at 13:33:22
Okay--we're in business. Hi Katia, Barb-cat, and others.
Oh Katia--how i can identify with how you are feeling. It is so hard when you feel like you can't deal with the everyday stuff, and it feels like it will never, ever end. I thought that a couple of months ago the fall/winter depression would gobble me up whole, and I would never get better. The thing that was hardest for me was losing my appetite. How I know that tight, nauseous feeling in your stomach. food just sits there like a rock and doesn't have a taste. eating is so primal and so simple, so it is really disorienting for me when I don't want to. My therapist really helped me out with it. He told me, "so what if you don't have an appetite? don't beat yourself up for it." So when I would eat and feel disgusted, I'd just tell myself, "so what" and then give myself a big pat on the back after having completed the "task" of eating. when I felt like I wanted to die, I'd just tell myself, "i feel like hell, but this is temporary, and I'll feel better soon." and do you know what, I did.
Make the proper med adjustments with your pdoc, of course. but the behavioural stuff is tres important during this time, too.
Try and give yourself a mental gold star for completing your everyday things if you can. depression can make all of that stuff seem downright oppressive. out of bed, gold star. taking a walk, gold star, etc. I can't say that it helped me feel fabulous when I did this, but at least I got through it. And i really noticed a difference from my last depressions by doing this. It gave me just a tad more strength. Try not to spin your wheels too much with extraneous effort to heal yourself. Use your strength to get through the day. You will feel better soon--I know it. Also--try not to sentence yourself until March. You may feel like shit now, but it doesn't mean that it will automatically last until then--you could be pleasantly surprised. One day at a time.
Take lots and lots of care,
Katy
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