Posted by katia on November 10, 2004, at 16:27:54
In reply to Re: Needing support/shamanic healing?, posted by fluffy on November 10, 2004, at 15:55:08
> Okay--we're in business. Hi Katia, Barb-cat, and others.
> Oh Katia--how i can identify with how you are feeling. It is so hard when you feel like you can't deal with the everyday stuff, and it feels like it will never, ever end. I thought that a couple of months ago the fall/winter depression would gobble me up whole, and I would never get better.
**How long did it last?
It's this changeover in short days that triggers me. Maybe once I adjust to that. I am feeling slightly better today - wierd. So then I think I'm so sick to death of being at the mercy of these moods which are at the mercy of any change in the environment.
Interesting thing- I called my pdoc and set up an appt. I also asked for a recommendation for a sunbox/light box. I looked it up on line (Apollo Brite Lite IV) and one thing it says is that it provides full spectrum light and eliminates so much yellow. Very interesting as that is one thing that happens to me during this time. It feels like my eyes fill up with a sallow looking color - everything is sallow. He says these really help people - soooo maybe I'll try yet another thing.
Which meds are you on now? Depakote? any AD?
> Make the proper med adjustments with your pdoc, of course. but the behavioural stuff is tres important during this time, too.
> Try and give yourself a mental gold star for completing your everyday things if you can. depression can make all of that stuff seem downright oppressive. out of bed, gold star. taking a walk, gold star, etc. I can't say that it helped me feel fabulous when I did this, but at least I got through it. And i really noticed a difference from my last depressions by doing this. It gave me just a tad more strength. Try not to spin your wheels too much with extraneous effort to heal yourself. Use your strength to get through the day. You will feel better soon--I know it. Also--try not to sentence yourself until March. You may feel like shit now, but it doesn't mean that it will automatically last until then--you could be pleasantly surprised. One day at a time.
> Take lots and lots of care,