Posted by jujube on October 17, 2004, at 8:07:35
In reply to I can't hold on...., posted by jerrympls on October 17, 2004, at 1:52:10
Oh Jerry, you are still too young to give up hope. You have to hang on. You are probably experiencing Effexor withdrawals (I've been hearing that nightmares and muscle tension are a common withdrawal effects). Perhaps you can see if your pdoc would agree to your starting the Cymbalta while you finish your wean off Effexor. Also, maybe the Trazadone is causing some problems. I had been given Trazadone for sleep, and even a small dose of 25 mg left me emotionally drained and exhausted until about noon the next day. I only took it for three nights, and although it did help with sleep, it left me emotionally void.
Jerry, please don't give up. There are so many options out there - from pharmaceuticals to natural alternatives, or a combination of the two. You need to continue to work with your doctor to ensure that no stone is left unturned.
Tamara
> Friends - I've been fighting to keep my head above water. Many of you have been so kind with your posts and compassion. I'm losing this war. This cancer called depression is overtaking me and I have no more strength. I am alone. I have seen too many doctors, been on too many medications.
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> I'm down to 75mg Effexor XR. Trazadone & Ambien for sleep - but I just have horrific nightmares and wake up with every muscle tensed.
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> My life is devoid of life, pleasure, desire, want, need, etc. I can remember saying to myself when I first was diagnosed with depression when I was 20 that "I didn't want to still be suffering when I was in my 30's..." I'm 32 now.
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> There are no more answers. There is nothing for me. I'm not where I wanted to be in life. I'm just suffering.
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> I'm not making a difference in life. I wrote my parents again to tell them I most likely won't last much longer.
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> My life has gotten consistantly worse to a point of no return. I can't turn back time and I haven't the strength to battle biology. The only way out is, well, you know.
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> I don't think God likes me. Do I beleive in a God? I've been kicked too many times when I'm down like this and...I cannot bare it any longer.
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> I'm not writing this for sympathy....I just know you all understand.
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> I want to be free of these chains....
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> free, free
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> Thanks all
> Jerry
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