Posted by Elizabeth on July 31, 2001, at 18:22:34
In reply to Re: DID, MDs, DSM, EMDR, etc. » Elizabeth, posted by shelliR on July 30, 2001, at 22:23:16
> It’s a variant, but a significant variant, much less of a disruption of my life as a adult. And yes, abuse has to occur and the child must have a tendency to dissociate.
My understanding is that people have different defensive styles, and dissociation is one of many possible defense mechanisms.
> I don't know if this is a fact or not, but it seems from my observations that the abuse had to have been kept a secret; even in the case of siblings both being sexually abused by the same adult, it has generally never been discussed until they were adults with the people that I have come to know.
Well, do you know anyone who was abused but did speak to someone about it?
> Body therapy is the combination of therapy with on-hands massage type work.
That sounds really cool! And I can see how it would be helpful to someone in your situation.
> Co-conscious means that I always know when my personalities are talking -I can hear them when they are talking and I don’t let them take over my body.
Talking...so they talk to each other, or is it just several different internal monologues?
> I suppose it’s odd, but it doesn’t seem odd to me.
It's odd, trust me. :-)
> Actually my youngest one, who has recently turned three and a half (a momentous event for a child who had declared she did not want to get any older) has the name Elizabeth.
Say hi to her for me, then.
> BTW, they get older on their own, they tell me when they have gained a half year or a year and they sound older.
Does the aging occur at the same rate as real aging? Or do they age in a discontinuous fashion?
> Ever had a sleep or ambulatory EEG?
> No, because sleep hasn’t been a problem (except on nardil) and I have no indication that I sleep-walk.
Sleep studies can illuminate more than just sleepwalking. Anyway, I'd be curious if there were predictable changes in your brain wave patterns when you switch identities.
> Have you noticed any effect of the medications you're taking on this phenomenon?
> No, I never even deal with it with medications—just the depression and the anxiety.
So I gather. (I was wondering whether any of the antidepressant and anxiolytic medications you've tried had an incidental effect on the dissociation.)
> Well, I don’t take it anymore! When I used to take it then I spelled it selegiline! < g >.
So, it improved your spelling? Or your typing?
> More on the topic of medication, the last three days have been pretty awful for me and I am wondering if the estrogen I’m taking is making my depression worse.
Could be. I had major problems with the hormonal contraceptives that I tried (see one of the posts directed to Lorraine).
> It’s either that, or the oxycontin is starting to be less effective. Bummer.
FWIW, I've heard of a number of cases in which people took full opioid agonists (morphine, oxycodone, and -- get this -- oxymorphone) as antidepressants for periods of months or years and never became tolerant.
> Hope you are continuing to do well.
Yes, very. Thank you.