Posted by Rick E. on June 30, 2000, at 9:56:50
In reply to Re: Euphoria turns into self-destructive urges » stjames, posted by Cass on June 29, 2000, at 14:30:11
> I think my need to escape is pretty strong sometimes, and the feeling I get from a couple glasses of wine, i.e., optimism and upliftedness however fleeting) lures me back. Deep down, maybe I am tempting fate, too, because maybe in that altered state I'll just destroy myself quickly without the trauma and pain that would go along with a planned suicide attempt.
> I feel like apologizing for this heavy subject matter, but I guess I won't because I'm just trying to work through my feelings.
Cass,Don't apologize, you sound smarter than the average bear...I am wondering why you are having so much trouble being honest with yourself...you seem to have no trouble being honest with us!
I think everybody here probably would like to, in one way or another, escape from what we are feeling. But the truth of the matter is, we are here to try and heal our minds and bodies, or at the very minimum, to cope with what we lack in our brain chemistry. Please give yourself a fighting chance, and leave the alcohol alone. I know alot of people would probably disagree with me, and after all, it's just an opinion here, but for me, self-medicating with alcohol is probably what got me here in the first place. Give yourself a break...find a way to cope with your urges to "escape"...maybe plug those feelings into a positive activity...it's not easy, the first step is the hardest...but in the long run, you may just find some peace in it.
BTW, if you end your life, there will be trauma and pain whether or not you are drunk...maybe not for you, but for many, many others. I wish you the best.
Rick E.
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