Posted by Cass on June 28, 2000, at 22:20:58
I've had two glasses of wine that gave me an incredible sense of well-being, and now that it wears off just a little I feel cutting my wrists. Why does this happen? In general, I am not feeling suicidal right now. When I drink, something comes over me, and I feel much more courageous about doing something self-destructive. However, I've never actually acted on the urge except when I had already planned to do so before I had a drink. I don't drink all that often, but sometimes if someone talks about it I get strongly get the urge. I don't care if I'm considered an alcoholic. I only drink maybe two times a week at the very most. I don't think that's enough to jeopardize my physical health. I just don't like the disturbing self-destructive urges I get. I used to date this man, and we drank a lot together. When we would drive through the canyons back to his house, I would be hoping that the car would go off the road and into the ravine. This is what's on my mind right now, and I just wanted to share it with someone.
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