Posted by Johnturner77 on June 12, 2000, at 13:52:38
In reply to Re: Spelling correction » JohnL , posted by SLS on June 11, 2000, at 8:03:09
SSRI's cause(in me)among other things a kind of mellow sense of well being that is not the same as happiness or certain other senses(sensations) of well being. It is not connected with hope or drive. It is only indirectly connected with pleasure. Rebound causes an irritability that makes me say to myself, hmmm, this must be the depression that SSRI's are designed to treat. Sometimes I wish that I had a vocabulary to describe subjective internal states sufficiently. Perhaps a really wierd set of diagnostic questions might prove illuminating.
Does this medication make you feel like you were surrounded by a wool blanket or warm satin sheets? Do you feel like there is a wall of mud brick surrounding you or glass? Do voices make you feel like you are balancing on a vibrating knife blade or like messages being passed through a key hole?
What sort of metaphors come to mind for you? What new metaphors do your medications bring into your experience? Instead of a pDoc I want a drug experimenting poet! 8>)
What I am looking for is appropriateness and flexibility. I don't want to be limited by my brain or drugs to certain states of being. If I ever end of in a concentration camp(or a job :-) ) I want to be able to control my states sufficiently to be able to find happiness in little things even if the big picture sucks all the courage out of me.
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