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Posted by Dr. Bob on May 19, 2008, at 0:01:57
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help, posted by Molybdenum on May 16, 2008, at 20:25:45
> Eat [xxx] paracetamol tablets and you'll die too.
Please be careful not to post information that could (even if you don't want it to) be used to harm oneself. Thanks,
Bob
Posted by Dr. Bob on May 19, 2008, at 0:09:56
In reply to Re: Pluto Are You There??????, posted by Fivefires on May 18, 2008, at 15:47:59
> Where's your heart?
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> Why did you post here? I'm so glad I'm not you.Please don't post anything that could lead others to feel accused or put down.
But please don't take this personally, either, this doesn't mean I don't like you or think you're a bad person. And Pluto, I'm sorry if you felt hurt.
I encourage anyone who has questions about this or about posting policies in general, or is interested in alternative ways of expressing themselves, to see the FAQ:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/faq.html#civil
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/faq.html#enforceFollow-ups regarding these issues should be redirected to Psycho-Babble Administration. They, as well as replies to the above post, should of course themselves be civil.
Thanks,
Bob
Posted by Fivefires on May 19, 2008, at 7:55:54
In reply to I am here you fuckin freek » Fivefires, posted by Pluto on May 18, 2008, at 16:16:58
I'm so sorry Pluto.
My heart is just so broken at your situation.
I know how you feel, ... but there is a child I would be very afraid would follow my example if I were to leave and there will be grandchildren I will not see, and more ...
I cannot feel love or happiness easily at this time.
I've become angry at all of it; the illness, the cost of care, the seemingly unimportance of the caring for this illness, the places like you say you fear you will end up if you stay.
I'm here at this website because all of these people, suffering themselves, put forth effort, in their different ways, to help me hang on.
(They know how wicked it is and it is most always not something we have brought upon ourselves.)
They offer their knowledge and experiences, endlessly, because they know my wish is to be well.
I don't have have much $ and I am alone and I'm not receiving good care at this time.
I've heard you say you don't want pity or tears, and I guess, I should have backed off right then, as I am, for some reason, extremely drawn to trying to help people who feel this horrid pain w/ this heart of mine, which at this time is filled with a lot of sadness about this.
It's been four years since my father passed away. There have been loves come and go. I have had homes and security come and go. For too many months, I've felt a huge burden to those I love and even to those I don't.
I don't know if it is a blessing or a curse, but in my life I am simply just not able to give up. (I am not suggesting you are doing this.) I'm trying to explain myself. I've had sadness inside for a long time. I think it was my father's death which brought so much to the surface of me, and now, a new medication I'm taking seems to be uncovering some 'aggression' beneath this sadness, and, I'm just very sorry.
5f
Posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 8:20:36
In reply to Pluto, posted by SLS on May 18, 2008, at 18:14:25
i doublely second that.
try zyprexa.i KNOW you don't want to get fixed. you want to die, you want to find an end.
but think about it.
.......THEN what?
Posted by Phillipa on May 19, 2008, at 11:10:05
In reply to Re: Pluto, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 8:20:36
Pluto please let the others know that you have babbledmailed me and you are awake now. Love Mom Phillipa
Posted by Phillipa on May 19, 2008, at 11:26:37
In reply to Re: Pluto, posted by Phillipa on May 19, 2008, at 11:10:05
Pluto please post on the board. I need their support and help as well as you. Love Mom Phillipa
Posted by Pluto on May 19, 2008, at 12:05:14
In reply to Re: Pluto, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 8:20:36
> i KNOW you don't want to get fixed. you want to die, you want to find an end.
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> but think about it.
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> .......THEN what?First I will answer the above:
Hey man.. Are you preaching..? I know what will be there once I find my end. There is NOTHING. Those who care may get dejected for a week or so. Then all will be back to normal. Those who stay abnormal after two weeks will get helped by psychiatrists. (I hate to say this) And please don't come with Goddamn hell kind of deterrents. I am no fool to believe there is another hell waiting for me.
Now, let me ask all of you: What is wrong with you people? This board is already got hijacked. I am the reason, but what I was asking? I was not asking for tears of sympathy. I was asking your help to ease this hell. To be specific to help me end it once and for all..! Now, you guys are obsessed with me? This sympathy, these tears please divert them to others here who are suffering. I am not the only one in this world in pain. All of you people suffer. Thats why you are the members of this board. There are better ways for you guys to spend your energy. Many are in need of your help to live a productive life. Help them please and not this man who is tired up of this life. Stop this madness here. Please focus on others, focus on others sufferings and if you can help, please do. Forget me. I will not be turned by you. Because, my problem is not tied up with a stupid Zyprexa. Drool
Solian is essentially similar to zyprexa. I have tried them both. Guys please understand. I have many problems. I am staying in a dangerous location. If I take more Zyprexa and live happy go lucky that wont last. You guys understand, I cant be more flagrant here. If I dont end myself up, I will end up by someone else. Not because I killed or robbed anyone, but because I spoke the truth. This is all I can say in this public forum.And get it well guys I am not an angel. I lived almost a saintly life so far. But I have been a very lustful man inside. All those I suppressed in me so far are torturing my psyche. There is a way to stop this torment. I want to be lascivious. That damn psychologist got it; though she was after my money. I miss this thing. And will you guys spend your time for such a man? Get away please....
This should put an end to this business. Stop posting here. I give you my email id: those who want to say something to me can contact me. And if you want to keep yourself private not letting your id details out to me can stay away please. But do me a favor at least. Please leave this podium for those who want to live. Not for a nasty lustful subhuman like me.
This email: khaljov@gmail.com
you can reach me through it, but dont try to be over smart please. I am next to none in the faculty of intellect.
This is the end. Dont inflate this thread please. Please.. Help those who are in need. I will not visit this board again.
Yes. I will not visit this board again. Stop spamming the board for me.
Posted by Phillipa on May 19, 2008, at 12:25:47
In reply to Please Please stop this for heaven's sake...!, posted by Pluto on May 19, 2008, at 12:05:14
My Son please dont leave we can help you. So many minds here were great knowledge. Love Mom Phillipa
Posted by IAMtheWalrus on May 19, 2008, at 13:12:12
In reply to Re: Pluto » Jeroen, posted by SLS on May 18, 2008, at 19:07:18
> Zyprexa is a lifesaver.
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> By the way, what do YOU mean by "psychosis"? Why did you take Zyprexa in the first place? Psychosis?
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> - ScottI agree with Scott, Zyprexa has saved many lives. Please don't bash a med just because YOU had a bad experience with it.
Wally
Posted by Jeroen on May 19, 2008, at 13:14:24
In reply to Re: Pluto, posted by IAMtheWalrus on May 19, 2008, at 13:12:12
i asked Dr Bob to delete my account since no help is truly ever appreciated and can be used against you if some sss lamer kid dont like what youre writing
Posted by IAMtheWalrus on May 19, 2008, at 13:17:04
In reply to Pluto, posted by SLS on May 18, 2008, at 18:14:25
> Yes. I have an agenda. I don't want anyone to kill themselves when they are in an altered state of consciousness. Drunk, depressed, or psychotic, these are all altered states within which it is nearly impossible to maintain good judgment. You area capable of good judgment, but not in your current state.
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> I respect your right to autoeuthansia. However, I don't think now is the time. You have too many untried alternative treatments.
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> My agenda is to not help you die nor help you live in pain. I would much rather that you live well.
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> I wish I had guarantees for you. I don't. I want you to take a calculated risk and live to try more treatments. You have not tried nearly enough.
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> First, though, if you do want to live for a day or a week or a month or more, you might as well do it in the absence of intolerable pain. Take Zyprexa. I can ALMOST guarantee that it will take away much of your pain and allow you to make better decisions. I am not saying that the decision to kill yourself has no psychosocial background. Maybe it can be justified at some point in the future, but not today.
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> Choose to live WELL. Work for it. I know you have already worked hard. I'm asking that you make things easier on yourself by taking an anti-suicide drug like Zyprexa, rather than be haunted by an obsession with death. Zyprexa will take away the sense of urgency, anger, anxiety, and pain.
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> Stop the pain. No longer allow your thinking to be influenced by the pain.
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> I know you want out. Things for you suck. However, you are young and angry enough to live well despite your current thought style.
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> I WANT YOU TO BEAT THE CRAP OUT OF ME. I don't mind.
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> Tell me what I don't know about you. Tell me how I have made errors in judgment regarding you.
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> Yell at me. Tell me how I don't understand. Educate me. Make me understand. I want to understand.
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> Zyprexa will dramatically reduce your pain. Try it.
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> - Scott
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> I 100% back everything Scott mentioned above. I plead with you to please give Zyprexa a chance, i've used it in the past and it helped me dramatically. Please try it!Wally
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Posted by Phillipa on May 19, 2008, at 13:20:30
In reply to Re: Pluto » SLS, posted by IAMtheWalrus on May 19, 2008, at 13:17:04
Pluto I must go to a doctors appointment. I have not deserted you. No Mother will desert a wonderful Son like you. Love Mom Phillipa ps I too am trying to get well.
Posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 13:21:14
In reply to Please Please stop this for heaven's sake...!, posted by Pluto on May 19, 2008, at 12:05:14
> This is the end. Dont inflate this thread please. Please.. Help those who are in need. I will not visit this board again.
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> Yes. I will not visit this board again. Stop spamming the board for me.
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i am helping those i care about. and those i choose to. you are one.
i will "spam" what board i choose for whom i choose.
why would you ever think you are not worth it.
b2c
Posted by okydoky on May 19, 2008, at 13:41:38
In reply to Please Please stop this for heaven's sake...!, posted by Pluto on May 19, 2008, at 12:05:14
Selections from Plutos Post:
I am not the only one in this world in pain. All of you people suffer. Thats why you are the members of this boardPlease focus on others, focus on others sufferings and if you can help, please do.
The assumption is not necessarily correct, that responding to Pluto is for his benefit alone. If that were the case there really would be no reason for the board as it is but to be set up in another way where by each poster to posts his/her problem or questions and have every response be only via babblemail or direct email.The first sentence on Psycho-Babble Welcome is: This is a message board for mutual support and education,
Pluto, you have not hijacked anything. If you want people only to speak directly to you I hope they do, but the selfless thing to do, which appears to be what you are asking for, would be to continue the dialogue on the board.
I guess I put myself out there now.
oky
Posted by okydoky on May 19, 2008, at 13:54:53
In reply to Re: Pluto, posted by Jeroen on May 19, 2008, at 13:14:24
> i asked Dr Bob to delete my account since no help is truly ever appreciated and can be used against you if some sss lamer kid dont like what youre writing"
I'm sorry to hear you feel that way. Seems like you might have appreciated it in the past. Why did you feel you had to have your account deleted? Seems so extreme. Just stop posting. You seem angry and I wonder if it really has anything to do with this site?
Posted by Jeroen on May 19, 2008, at 14:04:15
In reply to Re: Pluto » Jeroen, posted by okydoky on May 19, 2008, at 13:54:53
angry of my problems, i dont blame anyone just this world itself that is mad by itself
Posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:11:15
In reply to Re: Pluto Are You There?????? » Pluto, posted by Sigismund on May 18, 2008, at 16:00:52
> I quite like this.......
>
> Fade far away, dissolve, and quite forget
> What thou among the leaves hast never known,
> The weariness, the fever, and the fret
> Here, where men sit and hear each other groan;
> Where palsy shakes a few, sad, last grey hairs,
> Where youth grows pale, and spectre-thin, and dies;
> Where but to think is to be full of sorrow
> And leaden-eyed despairs;
> Where beauty cannot keep her lustrous eyes,
> Or new Love pine at them beyond to-morrow.
>
please tell me where you found this...who is this. it is incredible.
man i wish i could write like this. someday soon maybe.
b2c
Posted by Sigismund on May 19, 2008, at 15:22:12
In reply to SIGISMUND Are You There??????, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:11:15
Pluto mentioned 'Thou wast not born for death, immortal bird', and that's from Keats's 'Ode to a Nightingale', and the stanza I quoted is the third.
What I meant about English was that they have stopped teaching that sort of English here, though maybe they still they teach it where Pluto comes from.
Posted by B2chica on May 20, 2008, at 9:35:50
In reply to Re: SIGISMUND Are You There?????? » B2chica, posted by Sigismund on May 19, 2008, at 15:22:12
i'm sorry he didn't understand what you meant about English, i knew what you meant since you were quoting poetry.
what i like is that each word impacted me, each word is meaningful...thats the kind of poetry i love.
i've started getting serious about my writing these last few months. and even going to try to get some of my stuff published. i'm a newbie and have much to work on...but i just don't have time for my art (i work in oils) and with my little one right now...i miss it so much and poetry has seemed to fill a void and infact even filled it and expanded it. i'm able to express in poetry somethings that i can't in my art. which i like.i'm in touch with a poet at a university here, he's been very helpful to me and has encouraged me (well pushed me) to take a class this fall so i'm officially enrolled and start in august. and am quite excited. i only wish he were the teacher, but i had to take the night class which he doesn't teach.
sorry went on and hijacked thread but wanted to share with you.
thanks for the Keats
since i'm new to poetry, i want to hear others and learn of poets.
so anytime you think of some you like feel free to babblemail me some. i'd love it.thank you
b2c.
Posted by Pluto on May 20, 2008, at 10:05:00
In reply to Re: SIGISMUND ..thank you » Sigismund, posted by B2chica on May 20, 2008, at 9:35:50
Dear Friends,
I went to pharmacist without anyyyyy hope at all. Just asked him how to gain the pleasure I lost in daily activities. He suggested go to doc and get an antidepressant prescription. NO dear. I won't go to docs. Can you give me something that will prompt me to live at least a little longer?
He would give me a full pack only, not a few to experiment. Well, it was a small red packet. Written trivastal retard 50 and I had to strain read it. piribedil.
whether to take or not, I went back home. Pharmacist cautioned to take after food and only one not more than it for the first time. Drool.. I took two soon after food. Oh...good guy also had asked me whether I have a benzo in addition to take because this may cause agitation. I didn't take anything, but went to bed soon.
Today...waking up .... my goodnesss..... what a change...? what happened to me? Where that obsession to death disappeared? Geee... I sang loud that annoyed next door guys. Who cares...? I am filled. Sun is shining brighter than ever. For the first time in many months I turned on my stereo. See how sweet is Celine Dion..! I am alive... I sang with her.
Guys... I can't describe this feeling... let me stop and assure you.. some meds are really from heaven.
Phillippa, SLS, B2chia, sorry I can't type all of your names, so please don't get it I ignored you. Thanks for the wonderful support. I am going to the pharmacist again to know whether I can increase the dose... I want to be more happier. And no more Docs. Damn docs. That pharmacist knew what I need and that is without an appointment without paying single penny for consultation. I paid the price of medication. I need more. I will be back... soon..
"Tomorrow is always another day"
Let me sing in joy. Euphoric...? NO. I am normal... lalalalalalalala a
Cheers
Posted by Dr. Bob on May 20, 2008, at 10:30:13
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help » Pluto, posted by bleauberry on May 16, 2008, at 20:22:02
> I in no way do I support it. [xxx]
I'm glad you were clear that you didn't support it. But please also be careful not to post anything that could still make someone more likely to harm themselves. Thanks,
Bob
Posted by B2chica on May 20, 2008, at 11:23:34
In reply to Ooh.. TRIVASTAL where art thou come from...!, posted by Pluto on May 20, 2008, at 10:05:00
man, what a great pharmacist! i can't say i've heard that happening before.
oh pluto. i'm so happy to hear you sound in good spirits. just stay healthy please. take walks, eat good. and don't take life too seriously. enjoy books, enjoy outdoors. find something that makes you smile and do it as often as possible.
and give that pharmacist a big thank you.b2c.
Posted by SLS on May 20, 2008, at 11:32:30
In reply to Ooh.. TRIVASTAL where art thou come from...!, posted by Pluto on May 20, 2008, at 10:05:00
I want to be clear about this.
You have just witnessed a change in your brain function that has brought you out of the depths of despair to having feelings of joy. There is little pain. You now experience life as the way you should have for years.
Please write down all of the ways that you feel improved. Do this immediately so that you can capture the moment should you need to reflect on it in the future.
- Scott
Posted by Phillipa on May 20, 2008, at 18:50:30
In reply to Ooh.. TRIVASTAL where art thou come from...!, posted by Pluto on May 20, 2008, at 10:05:00
Pluto so happy for you!!!!! Love Phillipa
Posted by Deneb on May 21, 2008, at 0:30:14
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try. » SLS, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 18:59:29
Hey Pluto,
Sorry you want to die. I used to obsess about suicide all the time, but I got over that somehow. Nowadays I love life and want to live to be 120 years old.
I have fun nearly everyday. Even what some people might consider boring is fun for me. It just takes seeing the world in a different way.
There is hope for you Pluto. I used to be like you, researching ways to die. I wanted to hang myself because that seemed like a sure fire way to die, but what I ended up doing was overdosing several times, not really to die, but just because I felt bad.
I'm all over that now. Don't lose hope. You can be happy like me.
Maybe you just need a specific combination of meds, therapy and fun.
Have you tried taking a fun trip somewhere?
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