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Posted by Jeroen on May 16, 2008, at 19:09:07
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try. » SLS, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 18:59:29
get rid of the bogus med cocktail except for the benzos and try using this board to find a good med to feel supergreat, i had it once and the sun was really shining for me, i know it can for you too sir
Posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 19:22:48
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try., posted by Jeroen on May 16, 2008, at 19:09:07
> get rid of the bogus med cocktail except for the benzos and try using this board to find a good med to feel supergreat, i had it once and the sun was really shining for me, i know it can for you too sir.
Dear.....
You mean benzos only? sorry no stock. My doc won't let me a refill. I bought some bars from that crook. bloody guy. Won't give me more. I would pay but where to obtain more Xanax? have few ativans, klonopin is expired surprise.. it works. But won't last for more than a couple of weeks. then? where I will get them? My doc is pure evil.
Lyrica was good but not any more. Increase it? then who will get me more? Doc won't allow me. Damn I told him of my previous addiction to Marijuana. load of junk...
Posted by garylee on May 16, 2008, at 19:25:01
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try., posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 19:22:48
Pluto
Mind me asking where you are in the world? I take it you're in the USA?
Gary
Posted by Jeroen on May 16, 2008, at 19:25:04
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try., posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 19:22:48
don't blame yourself, my doc was more evil
he put me on a ward for hopeless people because i asked for Clozapine prescription *LAUGH*
Posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 19:32:32
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try., posted by garylee on May 16, 2008, at 19:25:01
> Pluto
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> Mind me asking where you are in the world? I take it you're in the USA?
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> GaryGary dear
won't let you know. you would definitely contact those damn volunteers. I need an opinion on how much elavil can kill me? I have them a lot more than fifty 75mg tabs. can get more if necessary. . can you help?
Posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 19:34:17
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try., posted by garylee on May 16, 2008, at 19:25:01
Posted by Jeroen on May 16, 2008, at 19:34:39
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try. » garylee, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 19:32:32
pluto, life is a bitch, a dirty one
youll get kicked, thrown against a wall in many ways, just embrace it
Posted by bleauberry on May 16, 2008, at 19:45:56
In reply to Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
Been there done that.
You know what this sounds like to me? Drug induced emotional numbness. The inability to feel anything good or bad. Everything is pointless. No depression, and no excitement either. Emotionally anesthetized to the point where the idea of life itself is boring and utterly pointless. Perfectly functional, but without purpose because nothing matters. Emotiona numbness with the volume control turned as high as it goes.
Take a look at the meds and it is no surprise.
Having been there and done that, my best suggestion is to wean down on the drugs and eliminate all but the ones you absolutely must keep.
As long as the mind is numb, it will be impossible to feel God's presence, to understand the miracle of life, to love a wife, to love kids, to be attracted to anything, to look forward to anything, or to understand the tragedy self imposed death is to other people who know you.
I was going to ask, does it matter at all to you that your death would cause tears, sobbing, grief, and non-optional dramatic changes in lives of other people? But I realize that is a stupid question, because when emotions are anesthetized, those things really don't matter. It's all pointless. Who cares.
Get off the drugs, starting with prozac. Replace amisulpride with zyprexa. Keep your favorite benzo and drop all the others.
Posted by Molybdenum on May 16, 2008, at 19:51:52
In reply to Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
Hi Pluto,
Sh*t hey? Ok, well as some have already mentioned, there's a few practical considerations:
1. I don't think anyone who is suicidal wants to end up with brain damage / in a vegetative state that either leaves you unable to think or maybe worse still, unable to finish yourself off properly.
So if you are going to do it, make sure you do it right. That will require a bit of serious thinking & research. There's no hurry, right? I mean, it's not like the opportunity is going to pass you by. This is one train that's never going to leave without you. So you owe it to yourself to have a good think about it.
I have found that planning & researching the topic has made me realise aspects of it that I had otherwise not considered. These 2 books are available as PDFs on torrent sites: [xxx] and [xxx]. Lots of good advice about the different ways you can stuff it up.
Re your pills, you could take a full bottle of every med you mentioned & still not cause death with any certainty. Sorry about that, but the drugs that are used at the Vet to "put down" a suffering animal are just not prescribed for humans any more. So taking all that you mentioned is not going to guarantee a peaceful or even painless or quick death. Sure, you could combine it with "swimming in deep water" for example. But who wants to drown? You don't sound like you want to make your final act an awful experience like that. This isn't something you're going to be able to practice at until you get it right. So please forget about the pills. You'll probably just vomit & then have to come up with some story in order to get new scripts filled. And if someone finds you unconscious, well....where could that lead? A mental hospital? Not my first choice. You might wish you were dead..! (sick joke....;))
2. The trouble with even a painless & clean suicide is that it's going to really upset some people you leave behind. Even if you think they don't care, they just might. They could get quite mentally f*ck*d up about it in the future - maybe for the rest of their lives. And especially kids - nobody wants to be responsible for that. Am I right?
I do believe I know a bit about how you feel. I feel like "Well, I'm not doing them any good like this either". But you really have to be a vindictive, violent and abusive parent to warrant them being better off without you. And you haven't given any indication of being like that. So that's a biggie in my list - not wanting to ruin someone else's life, especially children. Try to imagine what effect it would have had on you?
If you like movies (who doesn't) there's an interesting one you can download at torrent sites (or "rent I suppose") called "The Bridge" which revolves around the lives of those who go jumping in San Francisco. I found it somewhat "confronting" and that surprised me. For example, I'd never thought about the sort of conversations the people I'd leave behind would have after I'm gone. Have you? Quite enlightening. And remember, as far as we know you only get one chance at this, so watching this movie might give you some more useful information to consider. I mean, you sound like an intelligent person who wants to make sure you're doing the right thing. And I'll bet you wouldn't buy a house or a new car without considering all the pros, cons, options & "unknowns". Right? And I'm sure you'll agree this topic rates a little higher than houses & cars.
3. Now I take it that you haven't ALWAYS felt this way. And the last thing you want to do (no pun intended) is kill yourself on a whim, right?
Some days I feel so bad I want to die too. So far I've obviously not done it. I'll maybe take a hefty dose of Xanax & often sleep it off. Our emotions are so easily manipulated by chemicals and your list of meds is impressive. So I would be very suspicious that this combination of meds is in fact really not designed for your particular brain. How can you feel so bad otherwise? So I'd say that you should find a doc that knows brain drugs well. You might feel so much better on a completely different group - maybe even less drugs altogether. So that's point # 3, you really want to make sure that the meds you are on now aren't in fact causing you to feel this way. A lot of people kill themselves while on anti-depressants & benzos. So don't let the bastards at the chemical companies get away with ending your life just because they're inept at their jobs. So you really need to get a very competent doc to review your total meds & the influence it could be having on you. Fair enough?Now, you say that you're not depressed or anxious. But you're taking a lot of drugs that are primarily prescribed for depression, anxiety and to "elevate your mood". I don't mean to argue about how you feel. You feel how YOU FEEL. I just know that I have suffered from depression since I was a kid. I'm 41 now and it's taken me this long to realise how better off I could have felt if I'd been treated with the right meds earlier. Even up to 30, I had still never given anti-depressants a genuine go at relieving how I felt. I just assumed that if they didn't make me feel better in a few weeks, they must be useless. So there's another sad fact - sometimes they take a couple of months to work, and that's assuming the particular ones you're on are right for you - which it sure looks like it isn't the case for you. A good doc will come up with a comprehensive project plan to take you from "how you feel now on those meds" to "feeling better" - maybe on completely different meds. A good doc will know enough about the mechanisms that your current drugs utilise to maybe realise your brain needs a different approach (chemically and/or otherwise). The good news about feeling so bad is that the chances of feeling better with a different treatment are actually quite high. Wouldn't you agree?
So what are you going to do? Have a think and please let us know. There's so many people here who have taken everything you can imagine and with varying degrees of success. Although nobody knows your specific situation & history, they've had a lot of similar feelings I am sure and can offer some very good anecdotal advice and dare I say "support"....! 'Tis true, 'tis true....
Have a good think.
Mr. Be Damned.
Posted by SLS on May 16, 2008, at 20:01:37
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try. » SLS, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 18:59:29
I don't want depression to claim another life. It is my enemy, no matter where I find it. I don't know you. This is true. However, I know that you are still part of humanity. At the very least, this is how I see you, even if no one else does. (Many seem too, though). Would it surprise you that I should shed tears on your behalf. I would love to think that something mushy like that should sway you to hold on a little longer, but... I know better.
I really didn't mean to pontificate that there should be any kind of meaning of life but life itself. I guess you can disagree with me on this. You are a pretty heady fellow. I wouldn't presume to challenge your spiritual philosophies (or lack thereof).
Please maintain a dialog.
- Scott
Posted by SLS on May 16, 2008, at 20:06:47
In reply to Re: Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help » Pluto, posted by bleauberry on May 16, 2008, at 19:45:56
Posted by Jeroen on May 16, 2008, at 20:14:42
In reply to Very Much into Suicide | Great post. (nm) » bleauberry, posted by SLS on May 16, 2008, at 20:06:47
yea Dr bob is on fire lately
the forum i ment :P
Posted by bleauberry on May 16, 2008, at 20:22:02
In reply to One more question if you can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 17:10:23
If you are so inclined to ignore my suggestions in the previous post, then realize that what I am about to say is not for your benefit, but for the benefit of other people that have loved you and lived with you. If you ignore the suggestions, then there is nothing else I can do, and then I resign to focusing on the care of everyone else in your life instead of you. This is for them, not for you.
[xxx]
I in no way do I support it. [xxx]
Hey, a drug overdose, or a bullet in the head, or a noose from the rafter...these are lame man. Really lame. Old news. [xxx]
I suspect your mind is so numbed by medication that the resulting anhedonia/avolition/apathy are massively dominating. When you obsess death or think of an affair, it is your survival mode straining for some way to create excitement. Your brain is trying as hard as it knows to bust out of that numbness. It is no match for the longterm power of the drugs though. Give it some help, change those meds in the ways I suggested, or something along those lines.
Absolutely stop thinking about death and suicide. Don't do it. [xxx] Best bet is to harness all the power and creativity of that obsessive tendency, and use it to strategize the steps in changing those meds.
Prozac = bye bye
Amisulpride = bye bye
Zyprexa = hello
Xanax = staying around a while
Klonopin = call me if you need me
Lyrica = bye byeCarefully and controlled...that's where you obsessive gift comes in. Obsess on that instead of death.
Posted by Molybdenum on May 16, 2008, at 20:25:45
In reply to One more question if you can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 17:10:23
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> Adding this more.
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> Why overdosing meds are not a good idea? I think overdosing Elavil will help to end this business besides I would not be taking Elavil alone. Will add more Cozaar Inderal and whatever toxic available. Still you think I won't die? I think you guys want to thwart me. Frankly, if I don't want to end up in coma and wake up vegetated you should help me. Tell me the fatal dose of Elavil.
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> please...Hi Again,
overdosing is a great idea, sorry "method". The problem is that unless you know a Vet - not the Vietnam war variety, you just don't have pleasant drugs available to you. The only pleasant ones on your list are the Xanax, etc and the lethal dose of those is so high, nobody can eat that much chalky crap. Your stomach isn't big enough. Unless you count choking on your own vomit a successful method???
Over the past 30 years pharmacologists have gotten very positive performance reviews at work for inventing drugs that have a huge gap in between "the therapeutic dose" and the "lethal dose". In contrast, the old barbiturate tranquillisers of the 1950s & 60s had a very narrow gap, so people killed themselves quite easily by taking a bottle - intentionally or not.
No good doc these days will prescribe them any more for this reason.
I thought you didn't want to have a horrible death? Even if you have enough Elavil its not going to be pleasant at all. Go look it up in Google. Just multiply the "bad side effects" by 100 and you'll get an idea of what it will feel like.
Eat [xxx] paracetamol tablets and you'll die too. It will take a few days but it's very effective. The paracetamol destroys your liver. So your body just gets more & more toxic and you turn yellow. What a horrible way to go.
And I really do believe your meds are to blame for your current state. HOW ELSE CAN YOU EXPLAIN FEELING SO BAD ON ALL THESE DRUGS??? You would prefer to feel good again rather than die, right? So why not give that a try. It's not like you can be worse off. So why not give it a try?
Come one..!
Posted by okydoky on May 16, 2008, at 20:43:15
In reply to Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
I think you have a lot of courage to post this. I feel like this most of the time but never have the nerve to "reach out." I read some of the responses.
I've had several attempts and two close ones. I walked a bridge for several hours in contemplation. Had huge blisters. Even in my darkest moments I kept thinking what if I change my mind in mid air?
I know it is cliché to say you don't know what tomorrow will hold, but how much "bad" time would you be willing to live with in the hopes of even a short span of wanting to live! Maybe while youre looking or working toward those times that might be good or just okay you can just let life pass by until things improve. Most days that is what I strive to do. Kind of put life off until I am able to actually live it. If I actually look at myself and how I feel and the hopelesness of it all all I want to do is die by any meens. Can you remember a time when you did want to live? Perhaps never contemplated it either way? Would you be willing to put in some hard time to see if you can get back to that? You have nothing to loose. Either you'll get there first or you'll die first. Why not take the chance that you'll get to a place that you want to live before you actually do die. Life is not very long. You are not going to suffer much longer than you have already lived. Imagine if you could look back afer you purposfully die and know then what might have been if you had only heald out!
I think I think a bit like this because many times I am so depressed I would tell my father "I am dieing" Really meening I have no life left. But his answer one time had some meening, he said "so am I, we all are."
I wish I had a real answer for you. I thank you so much for posting this and everyone else for their responses.
oky
Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on May 16, 2008, at 21:02:58
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try. » garylee, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 19:32:32
Hi Pluto:
I wanted to mention that we are both on some similar medications. Prozac, Klonopin, Ativan, Amaryl (I am on 8mg!!...major type 2 diabetes) and was on Cozaar, but came off of it because it caused me some hefty suicidal thoughts. And trust me, I know what 'suicidal thoughts' feel like (15 years of them!), but these where much more intense. I say so because I tracked it down in the notes of my journal. I could see the week I started on Cozaar, and when I came off of it. I am not saying this drug, or that drug, or any drug will just all of a sudden make everything 'better', but like others have said, I think you may just have too much of everything in your body. I certainly am not going to preach about suicide being 'bad' or anything like that, because I have been there, I know what desperately wanting to end it feels like too. As do a number of others on here, and I know it doesn't make it easier, but give it that 'chance', maybe try changing or dropping some of your meds. (I'd like to add with a doc's care, but I know that isn't always possible.) When I am at that point of wanting to end it all, and I've laid in my bed, seriously with out-of-body experiences too often to recall, my 'salvation' I think is just mumbling to myself..."Something will come up....something will come up..". And with a little force on myself to change things, I have no idea how, it does get a bit better. Weird, I know. So, maybe try 'mumbling', or saying something with just a tiny, little bitty ounce of things somehow changing, and it's against all odds, but they can work. Maybe that is too optimistic for you, I don't know. Ya, I know, I am just crazy. Best of luck.
Jay
Posted by Phillipa on May 16, 2008, at 21:04:12
In reply to Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
Pluto I have a favor to ask of you. It's really not that hard. Since I'm old now 62 and my productive years of life are basically over would you hang in there with me although we don't know each other. I do know you name from babble posting one that is for a week and see if we can figure out a plan for life. If you're not happy living with you wife and kids and don't have a lot of faith in your friends at work. Maybe you're do for a life change. Who says we can't change our lives. Sure some may get hurt. But you may find your nitch in life that is your own life. If you will hang on another week would you babblemail me? Lets talk? That's not asking a lot. Love Phillipa and ps I have related to your thoughts.
Posted by Jeroen on May 16, 2008, at 21:24:37
In reply to Re: Pluto » Pluto, posted by Phillipa on May 16, 2008, at 21:04:12
isnt pluto a dog on tv whos always smiling and eating good food? :)
Posted by Phillipa on May 16, 2008, at 23:35:48
In reply to Re: One more question if you can help - I'll try. » garylee, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 19:32:32
Pluto I hope you will contact us and let us know you are okay. Percy right? Love Phillipa
Posted by SLS on May 17, 2008, at 2:08:15
In reply to Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
Pluto, are you sure that you're not depressed because you've been demoted to a "dwarf planet"? I would be. You even have your own moon.
(I hope you can tolerate a bit of silliness).
Let's play "Can You Top This". Now, the only reason I'm doing this is so that you can get a feeling for how hard I have worked AND how many alternatives you really have. Navigating the pharmacopoeia in an effort to treat diseases of the brain or to bolster the milieu within which psychotherapeutic methods may be more effective is extremely tedious.
Rest. Gather your strengths. Move forward towards mental health. Yes, use your resourcefulness to create a plan - one that enhances your life rather than romances your death. What your mind has tolerated might be worse than what your biology dictates. Look for a new counselor. Like me, you might profit from a multimodal approach. CBT might help you to build a framework of positive thinking. You might have to work harder than me. For all I know, your situation might be worse than mine.
You have to want to.
I can't give you that. Nobody can. You must give it to yourself. Why don't you make a commitment to invest another 5 years? You MUST do some things differently, though. The definition of insanity is to do the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Believe it or not, Albert Einstein said that. I fall into that trap sometimes myself.
- Scott
**************************************************Anyway, this is what I've had to put up with in an effort to seek a life worth living. I'm still working toward refining my treatment to attain full remission. Not all of these drugs were antidepressants, but include adjuncts from other classes.
adinazolam
amitriptyline
amoxapine
aripiprazole
atomoxetine
bromocriptine
bupropion
carbamazepine
chloral hydrate
chlorpromazine
clomipramine
clonazepam
clorgyline
d-amphetamine
desipramine
donepezil
doxycycline
duloxetine
escitalopram
fluoxetine
fluphenazine
gabapentin
idazoxan
imipramine
indalpine
isocarboxazid
l-methylfolate
lamotrigine
levetiracetam
lithium
lorazepam
memantine
methylphenidate
mifepristone
mirtazapine
moclobemide
modafinil
nomifensine
nortriptyline
olanzapine
oxcarbazepine
paroxetine
pemoline
phenelzine
PKU-8059
pregabalin
protriptyline
quazepam
quetiapine
reboxetine
riluzole
risperidone
selegiline
sertraline
sibutramine
sulpiride
temazepam
thioridazine
thyroxine T4
tiagabine
topiramate
tranylcypromine
trazodone
triazolam
triiodothyronine T3
trimipramine
valproate
venlafaxine
viqualine
zaleplon
ziprasidone
zolpidem
zonisamide
Partial List of Treatment Regimes:
----------------------------------PKU-8059
adinazolam
amoxapine
atomoxetine + lamotrigine + aripiprazole
bupropion
clomipramine
clorgyline + lithium
clorgyline + lithium + trazodone
clorgyline + valproate
duloxetine + lamotrigine + aripiprazole
escitalopram + lamotrigine + aripiprazole
fluoxetine
gabapentin
idazoxan
imipramine
imipramine + lamotrigine
imipramine + lamotrigine + gabapentin
imipramine + lamotrigine + olanzapine
imipramine + lamotrigine + quetiapine
imipramine + lamotrigine + valproate
imipramine + lithium
imipramine + lithium + T3
indalpine
isocarboxezid
lamotrigine
lamotrigine + gabapentin
lamotrigine + sulpiride
lamotrigine + sulpiride + modafinil
lithium
memantine + imipramine + lamotrigine + aripiprazole
mirtazapine
moclobemide
modafinil + lamotrigine
nomifensine
nortriptyline + bupropion
nortriptyline + lamotrigine + ziprasidone
paroxetine
paroxetine + desipramine
pemoline
phenelzine
phenelzine + amitriptyline
phenelzine + desipramine
phenelzine + desipramine + carbamazepine
phenelzine + desipramine + valproate
phenelzine + imipramine + lamotrigine
phenelzine + nortriptyline + lamotrigine + aripiprazole + l-methylfolate
protriptyline
reboxetine + lamotrigine
selegiline
sertraline + lamotrigine + aripiprazole
sertraline + lamotrigine + aripiprazole
tranylcypromine
tranylcypromine + bupropion
tranylcypromine + desipramine
tranylcypromine + desipramine + bromocriptine
tranylcypromine + desipramine + d-amphetamine
tranylcypromine + desipramine + d-amphetamine + T4
tranylcypromine + desipramine + lamotrigine
tranylcypromine + desipramine + methylphenidate
tranylcypromine + desipramine + olanzapine
tranylcypromine + desipramine + pemoline
tranylcypromine + desipramine + risperidone
tranylcypromine + desipramine + valproate
tranylcypromine + imipramine
tranylcypromine + imipramine + gabapentin
tranylcypromine + imipramine + lamotrigine
tranylcypromine + imipramine + valproate
tranylcypromine + nortriptyline + lamotrigine
tranylcypromine + nortriptyline + lamotrigine + aripiprazole
tranylcypromine + nortriptyline + lamotrigine + aripiprazole + oxcarbazepine
trazodone
venlafaxine
venlafaxine + imipramine + lamotrigine
venlafaxine + nortriptyline + lamotrigine
viqualine
Posted by SLS on May 17, 2008, at 5:29:59
In reply to Re: Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help » Pluto, posted by SLS on May 17, 2008, at 2:08:15
You can match up the generic names I've provided with the brand name as well as getting an idea as to what these drugs do pharmacologically here:
http://www.slschofield.com/medicine/psychiatric_drugs_chart.html
- Scott
Posted by SLS on May 17, 2008, at 9:10:53
In reply to Re: Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by SLS on May 17, 2008, at 5:29:59
Posted by bulldog2 on May 17, 2008, at 9:17:55
In reply to Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
I'm reading a book by Eckhart Toll entitled "A New Earth". Read it. Talks about living in the now. Most of us are programmed to think our happiness is dependent on things or situations. If I had a new car or a new job or a prettier wife etc. In your case you think you've done it all so you see no need to go on. Toll maintains our natural state is happiness. ever observe a dog. Just naturally happy.Happy to walk outside or just sit at a window and look outside. But we have to learn how to disconnect ourselves from our egos (our programmed thinking) and just live in the moment.I realize it's easier said than done. But it's time for all of us to challenge our belief systems.
Posted by Pluto on May 17, 2008, at 11:44:56
In reply to Re: Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by bulldog2 on May 17, 2008, at 9:17:55
Friends,It is my life and you people are not supposed to shed tears. What the hell is going on? My problem is bloody serious and you guys will not understand it. Those who can give me their e-mail I will open my heart to them. Not to all, some people are very much into me. You guys... what is it with you...? Helping me will endanger you, and it is damn serious. Do you wanna help me then? You guys are living your life. I want to end this business. Only approach me with caution. anything can happen, because I am for death and you guys are for life.
Contact me on your own risk. OR what is babble mail? How to do it?
Posted by Pluto on May 17, 2008, at 11:49:39
In reply to Found my thread.. friends I am alive but, posted by Pluto on May 17, 2008, at 11:44:56
Friends,
I took more Lyrica and slept more. Consider 14 hours of sleep. Gee.. what happened? I don't care but I have to speak something to Phillippa , SLS and many of those who were seemed to be worrying of me. (what for? it is my life)
And one more question if allowed. How to babble mail? I would have given my mail id here, but how can I make sure those contacting me are babblers? Anybody can do it and I don't damn care those preachers.
There is a change I notice now. I took 900mg Lyrica overnight, and today I find my desktop pic Natalie Portman kinda beautiful. What a surprise.. I surfed some more galleries and those whom I used to see as black and white kinda boring pics are colorful now...! This kinda move will not be good. I will fall into depression again. My depression is unique. During depression, I am afraid of death. But now it is a child's play for me.
Anyway, How to do babble mail?
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