Posted by susan47 on December 28, 2007, at 19:01:06
In reply to Dear Ex-T, dear man ..., posted by Susan47 on September 26, 2007, at 14:01:51
My therapist was really good at mirroring. He forgot to be genuine, he forgot to be himself, he forgot to be real.. he was all of those things in glimpses, but the empathy and the mirroring hid a lot of stuff .. he was a Pretender in the biggest sense.
I hated him so much, I loved him too, but most of all I wanted to be something meaningful, I wanted to be the thing my father never saw, I wanted to be the Sparkle and Shine that I Never Was.
And I made it, I made too much of it, I made the opposite of it, I made the Ugly and the Sad and the STupid and the Insane, I made the Sexy and the Wanton and the Freak, most of all CW Saw the Freak, He didn't see the person that could be Whole and Healed, he never saw me. He saw the sad misfit.
F*ck him.
Because that is Not what or who I am.
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