Posted by susan47 on September 6, 2006, at 0:42:15
In reply to Re: Joan, the ex-DH, ex-DH, posted by Joan797 on August 24, 2006, at 19:10:49
Yes, it is, being cut out hurts like hell. It makes me feel mean, and empty, and hateful. Full of hate for my ex-DH, for the many, many ways in which he hurts me and my children. And won't see it. And no, you can't teach anyone to love. Love has to be willing. And the fact is, I can't love him either. Not anymore, not after the way he treats my children. Not after I see the truth of the way I've been manipulated and played for a fool for so many years. Oh, Joan. Oh, God. I don't know. I've been used and abused and I hate myself for it, and I hate him and the whole damn world for allowing this to happen. For being without love. Without caring, or compassion, or kindness, or time, or laughter.
Don't worry, Joan, heaven doesn't exist anyway.
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