Posted by Alexus on September 5, 2006, at 10:32:00
In reply to x, posted by Alexus on September 4, 2006, at 3:17:28
push and pull
push and pull
oscillation.
is that what it is called?
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The up and down roller coaster of emotions
The push and pull oscillation of interpersonal relationshipsAnd then people get out of phase.
I think that was the main trouble between me and my mother
The up down
The push pull
The fact that we seemed to spend our whole lives out of phase
But it was more than that worse than that
But I think that was a significant part of it.And now...
The push pull thing
It isn't fair
I think you are supposed to learn to moderate
By not pushing trying to comprimise being tolerant
(But it is oh so hard to need to get away to feel invaded to need to get away and feeling horrified that that feeling of invasion and needing to escape is so intense)
I'm afraid of that.
That I'll get sick of people
That they will care about me
And I'll feel like that
Horrible horrible me :-(
(It has happened before)
Horrible horrible me :-(
(Then I got sick)but what if i meet someone and they come to feel that way about me?
:-(
better not to care
not to hurt them with the push
and sometimes i long to pull them closer
but then what?
(they will just get sick of me and if they don't then i'll get sick of them)
emotions are too much for me yeah
poster:Alexus
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