Posted by sunny10 on April 21, 2006, at 9:35:32
In reply to Re: self hate » Toph, posted by clearskies on April 21, 2006, at 0:26:12
aaah, CS, I do know what you mean.
I have gained 25 pounds over the last 9 months...
It is truly horrifying. But on the other hand, I can think straight now. I do hate it that I've outgrown all of my clothes (and the clothes I had to buy in between my old weight and my new weight). And I hate it that my fiance seems to think that all I need to do is to exercise more to take it all back off... he doesn't understand that AD's change our metabolism.
But, again, I am now able to see that thinking clearly without any type of self-medicating or winding up in the hospital is better.
As everyone else has said, we need to learn how to embrace what we have proven we are capable of and let the vanity fall by the wayside.
Funny, but until now I never thought of myself as vain. Being thin was effortless for me for 38 years. I never even thought about it. But I miss it now that it is gone, so I have to rethink my own vanity, I guess.
I do keep exercising. Walking, et cetera.
And I keep reminding myself that looks don't matter.. I am actually still below the norm of American standards- I am just different than I was.
I am different than I was- but in good ways, too.
Try to play up the good parts in yor head.
We'll make it through this...
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